habulan

almost a month has passed since i had updated my blog. i wish to change my blog's skin but i think that can wait, for now.

anyways, sobrang maraming nangyari sa akin for the past days. i have told my boss that i can no longer accept another extension contract since i'll be moving on to a new company which has offered me a regular position, not to mention a higher rate. dun na nagsimula ang problema. i have 2 more months before my contract nung malaman nya e tuliro na sya. so imagine kung ano na lang ang kinikilos nya ngayong 1 month na lang ang natitira. he's very much grumpy nowadays. di na nya ako kinakausap, which is, for me okay dahil bawas nangungulit at mas marami akong nagagawa. at di ko na nadidinig ang nakakairitang line nya na "mataas kasi ang presyo mo" or "masyadong kang mahal" at "di ka namin kaya".

since i started working, i never begged for any company to hire me or keep me in their workforce. pero bakit may mga times ngayon na parang utang na loob ko pa sa kanila na hinire nila ako? parang gusto nilang palabasin na wala akong utang na loob at aalis na ako ngayon. i mean, my contract will end on january 3rd, at wala akong viniolate sa contract na yun. tatapusin ko yun kahit di ko na feel. and im doing all the docs in preparation sa susunod na hahawak ng project.

the ceo of my agency, which happens to be his elder sister is also very much affected. at yung pagkaapekto nya sa situation e sana wag makaapekto sa relationship namin, as frends. i mean, yes, we're not that close, but during the course of our employer-employee relationship, we had bonded a frendship. anyway, kung maaapektuhan, e wala akong magagawa, blood is thicker than water, ika nga. but still, alam nya kung ano ang kalakaran sa agency, and therefore should not blame me.

she has asked me na kausapin ang boss ko (her bro) and to assure him na magiging ok ang takbo ng project kahit di na ako ang humahawak. ayaw pa daw nya kasing kausapin yun dahil wala syang maibigay na solusyon sa problema. parang, teka.. obligasyon ko pa ba yun? di naman ako siguro sisigawan nito, tulad ng ginagawa nya sa ate nya di ba? masyado kasi syang na-i-stress na sya daw nagrecommend sa agency ng ate nya at kung mabibitin ang project e sya ang masisisi at ikasisira ng record nya at pwede nyang ikatanggal. san ang justification sa iniisip nyang ito? ewan ko. pano ko sya kakausapin? ewan ko rin. parang mahirap atang kumausap sa taong sa tingin ko e sarado na ang pag-iisip.

for now, kelangang matapos ko ang lahat ng pwedeng tapusin. para kung may maiwan mang
mga bugs e hindi na sya show stopper.

2 phone calls

yesterday, i was on my way to cubao when i received a phone call from a friend.. haay naku.. na-depress lang ako after our conversation.. parang lalong lumiliit ang percentage ng matinong guys around..

kaninang umaga, i received a phone call na nagpangiti naman sa akin..

well.. tulad ng news.. phone calls can make or break someone's day..

missing someone...

im missing the long talks and bantering we used to share.. i know that you're busy.. that both our scheds wouldn't meet for sometime now.. but im glad na kahit pano, nagkakausap pa rin tayo.. pero miss pa rin kita..

a very busy day for me.. i went to cubao early this morning and brought the perfume orders to my partner's house. then, i went back home around 1030am to fulfill my promise to my mom. we went to festival mall instead of makati and spend some bonding time together. around 3pm, we went home, and due to tiredness, i fell asleep, and woke up late for my other appointment in cainta. i went to cubao to ride an fx going to sta lucia, but it was taking 48yrs, so i texted my 2 frends on how to get to sta lucia without taking the fx and taxi. finally, i took a jeep going to antipolo, and arrived in sta lucia, an hour late (or more?) for my appointment.. haay life.. adventure ito, hehehe.. dun ko lang din nalaman na 2 pala ang sta lucia, and i was waiting in the old one, while my friend was waiting on the new one, hehehe.. nagkita din kami syempre :) unfortunately, di kami nakaattend sa pamamahayag.. i hope na next time e makapunta na kami..

career and success

a very inspiring and eye-opening article, for those who are struggling in their work and finding their way to success, taken from Career Magazine

One in four workers is dissatisfied with their current job, according to the recent “Plans for 2004” survey by CareerBuilder.com. In any conversation or gathering, the topic tends to lean or end up towards our jobs. People love discussing the work that they do and finding out about others. We identify ourselves to the work that we do. Take some time to really listen and you will hear the dissatisfaction that is in the workplace. Even careers that come in a well-wrapped package of excellent salaries, benefits and privileges are not an exception at all. How and where do you start your search for a career? Whether you are fresh from training or coming back from a break in your working life, I have outlined a simple way of getting there:

Your Interests. What is it that really motivates you? What are you passionate about? Where do you get that driving force to overcome any obstacles that working life fires your way? I always say to clients to take the time to re-assess their life and work carefully. The first place to look is where your interests lie. Recall a time in your life since childhood where you have felt that strong passion flowing through you. What are you really interested in? What makes the butterflies in your belly fly all over or make your heart beat faster? What kind of work will get you out of bed every morning feeling refreshed from yesterday and ready to face another day in today’s battlefield of work?

A colleague had shared with me this story of a successful client who said to her that the only thing that seems to interest him when he was in school was the lunch break. Why? It is the only time where he could socialize with others and really connect with people. Assessing his situation when he was in the process of finding a career path, he held that thought dearly in his mind and came up with being an entrepreneur in financial advising. This person is way ahead of his time now building an empire that came from his interest in socializing and relating with people. He figured it out himself that with his strong interest in making a difference in a person’s life plus his deep desire in financial advising, he had found the path where he would like to go.

Your Beliefs and Values. A salesman who has over 25 years of experience and was laid off due to downsizing once said to me that as long as he believes in the product or service himself, he could definitely sell it! He also mentioned that the last thing he would like to do five days a week is to market something that doesn’t work and will only waste the consumer’s money. Isn’t this a formula for success? Put yourself in your clients’ shoes and ask yourself if you have really done a great job. If you value honesty, you have to practice it first and be able to give it to others in what you do.

Your Personality. Know thy self - another formula for success. There is an abundance of career assessments and services out in the market that one can avail of to get to know one’s self better. These tools whether self scoring or administered by a qualified professional will be most effective with the person’s knowledge of himself. They are there to guide and make you think outside the box. If you cannot do repetitive tasks over and over again then, working as an assembler of car parts will not be a good match for you. Recognizing where your strengths and weaknesses lie and finding a place where you could utilize these strengths to benefit the company and improving the weaknesses sounds like a good plan.
Dare to Take Risks. Risks taken after sufficient researching are calculated risks that would yield positive outcomes. Most of us get too comfortable of our existing situations even if we know very well that they are redundant or worse, obsolete. I could understand how change could generate fears of the unknown and of the unexpected. Life without change does not open doors to more or better opportunities. With our current business and technology moving so rapidly forward, how can we stick to old ways that do not work? This is why we have to undergo career and professional upgrading – to keep up with the flow of things instead of being left out. The world of work is now a life long learning field. It will require a lot of risk taking, letting go of things that do not work and being versatile – wearing different hats/multi-tasking.

Your Vision, Your Map. Through all these career searching or career change, never lose track of your end result. Write them down. Sound corny? Anybody who wants to invest their most valued time and effort into achieving their goals will not go in there without a plan. Why do you think builders and architects work on their blueprints first? You don’t put up the walls of a house without laying a strong base foundation first, right? Your vision is your guide, your reminder and your map. Also, dare to dream! Dreaming brings out the creativity in us. Creativity puts the glow and uniqueness to our work. It’s the one that sets us apart and adds colour to our achievements. Dreaming without doing achieves nothing. Make a list of things to do, do them (this is the most important step – to really do it!) and go back and experience the joy of putting a check mark beside the things you have accomplished.

Lastly, Take Ownership. As an adult job seeker, your time is up in pointing fingers at other people and putting the blame on them for your failures. You need to stop running and avoiding the truth! Face the facts, support your decision with important research and consult qualified people. I interviewed at least four people in my field of work in person before investing in a course that turned my career and life around. Coming to Canada as an immigrant and moving from one job to the other just to pay the bills, I lost that drive to excel and love what I do. I felt that I have turned into a robot programmed to do the same things over and over again. I was caught in the “Rat Race” of life and didn’t know how to get out. I made the decision to pursue a career that will revive me, make me look forward to coming to work everyday and live my passion of making a difference in other people’s lives. It wasn’t an easy road, there were quite a number of bumpy rides but that burning desire inside me carried me through it and made me appreciate the meaning of the work I do.

© 2005 Career Bound Magazine. All Rights Reserved. For permission to publish this article, please contact the publisher at publisher@careerbound.ca

news day

i received a lot of breaking news yesterday.. one from my bestfriend, which brought sadness to my heart.. sana, makita mo ang liwanag at dahilan kung bakit nagawa ko ang mga bagay na nagawa ko.. i love you so much that i dont want you to fall in the wrong path..

the other news concerns my niece.. well.. all i can say is kung ano ang puno, sya ang bunga.. at kung ano ang ginawa mo, ay babalik din sa yo..

thanks for ..

all who texted, emailed, called and dropped by to greet me... im so touched, grabe! aside from my tungkulin, you are what makes my life colorful to live

another i thing i'm thankful is after 7 months of going into my business, i have now reached and surpassed my quota. im now getting our daily pamalengke expenses from my sideline, thanks to God :)

raket gimik

nang dahil sa raket ko..


nami-meet ko ang mga taong matagal ko ng nakakausap pero di pa nakikita.. kamakailan lang, nakilala ko ang katukayo kong may 2 taon ko ng kachicahan thru pex at email.. ngayon naman, si nathan na matagal ko na ring kachicahan thru email at ym.. nakita ko rin kanina ang nagpapakislap sa makulit na mata ng isang kaibigan.. hmm.. sino pa kaya ang aking makikita? :D

Lyrics taken from the album "Blue Night "

You Took My Heart Away

(Music and words: Jascha Richter)

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

Chorus: You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Chorus:
You took...

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

Listen to You Took My Heart Away

(Real Audio - click to download the player here )

What have been i upto lately?

well, i've been very busy with my business, which turned out to be a monkey business by other people, hehe.. buti na lang, iniingatan kami lagi ng Ama.. kaya aside sa pang iistorbo at inis e wala namang nawala sa amin. actually, natuto pa kami mag ayos ng shipping to other countries, hehehe. at napraktis ang grammar ko, hehehe.. at ito pa ang pinakamaganda.. nakilala ko at nakachicahan ang consul ng Nigeria :D

copied this from an excerpt in my best bud's blog

Thursday, July 03, 2003

after church, i was looking for a stroll around any malls not so far from my area, and hoping to hang around with some friends. jary was supposed to meet up with PExer Ellheym but for some reasons i never bothered to know, their meeting didn't push through. so, going to megamall to meet them was scratched.

well, i just want to say that after more than 2 years, finally! nagkita rin kami kahapon at Powerbooks! the meeting was ok, ikaw ba naman ang sumaksi sa pagkikita ng 2 bakla e ewan ko na lang kung nde gumulo mundo mo, hehehe :D we had a nice long chat, around 2 hrs, just talking about life and lives, hehehe...

ito muna sasagutin ko, takas lang sa work...

Ten Years Ago: Third year college. Already used to having free-sched. Took one subject advance. Very eager to graduate, have a job and earn my own money.

Five years ago: I accepted my first contractual job in an agency. Tired of windows application programming, I self-studied web programming to become a web programmer. Was a regular visitor of jobstreet

Two years ago: I was back in Ortigas, and back to my former agency for a contractual job in a bank. Looking for a regular job.

One year ago: I was hoping to be a regular employee in one of my contractual clients. I was on the process of moving on from a failed relationship. Fortunately, my best buddy went back home from Canada. Thanks to him, and to God, I had my life back.

Yesterday: I got an unexpected phone call from a new friend, which made my spirits lift.

I Will Never Leave You

another one of my current fave songs, theme song from Green Rose, koreanovela pa rin..



I will never leave you
Erik Santos

You are safe here in my arms
Never fear I'll be beside you
Feel my love, touching your soul
Holding you closer as i whisper to you

I will never leave you hold on tight
Promise to stay forever by your side
I will never leave you promise i
Stay forever i will never leave you behind

Stay with me and you will see
I will be the one who been dreaming
I won't hurt the heart that you've given
And never be wounden in my arms i promise

I will never leave you hold on tight
Promise to stay forever by your side
And i will always love you promise i
Stay forever i will never leave you behind

And every moment, every minute, every hour of my life
I intend to live my whole life with you
I will be your home and live the same forever in my arms
And will make it through

I will never leave you hold on tight
Promise to stay forever by your side
I will never leave you promise i
Stay forever i will never leave you behind......

( hold on tight promise to stay forever by your side )
I'll be with you... whenever, whenever, whenever..
( and i will never leave you promise i )
Promise i stay forever
I will never leave you behind....

You are safe here in my arms
'coz i will never leave you
Leave you behind.....

ive been looking for this song for ages, this is the theme song of Ch.2's Koreanovela "Save the Last Dance for Me"

Give My Love (English Version) - Edward Chun

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you're so scared
And i don't know waht to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won't change my love
And I can't do nothing to keep you

Oh, I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisse oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

As the hours pass away
You thing that love ain't here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don't give doubt a moment's rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisse oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisse oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisse oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

I Need You

I Need You
Leann Rimes

I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing
’cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now
’cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

buhay talaga..

haay life.. i dunno.. wasnt feeling well for days, dami kasing nagkalat na virus, and unfortunately, nakasalo ako, kaya ang bigat ng katawan ko. lucky for me kasi kahit ganito ang pakiramdam ko e ok naman ang takbo ng business, daming orders :) kaya lang, last night, my cellphone was snatched when i was in the bus. i was seated on the 2nd row near the door and this guy, pababa sya e hinablot cp ko at bumaba na. maybe i was just super tired, like i was feeling these past days, kaya wala yung presence of mind ko. thinking it over, ang daming boo-boos kaya nagtagumpay ang walanghyang yun.

1. i wasnt holding my cp on both hands, hawak nung isang kamay ko yung payong at pambayad sa bus. pero dati rati e carry ko naman hawakan pa rin ng both hands ang cp kahit ganun ang situation

2. i forgot to shout. hindi nya agad nahablot yung cp, and if i had the presence of mind to shout, the guy seating in front of me might have blocked his way.

3. pinipilit kong hawakan both ang cp cover at cp ko in one hand while texting. nung inagaw, madulas yung cp kasi yung tela yung nasa ilalim na syang nakadikit sa palad ko

lesson learned? madami, sobrang dami.. haay.. what a time na mawalan ng cp, kelangang makabili na ako within this weekend at mahirap magdeliver ng pabango ng walang cp :(

got this survey link from ajao

A little bit of Everything
Created by cunffussed and taken 119 times on Bzoink
*Basic
Name?	jawee
Birthday?	21 oct
Age?	18 *lol*
Hair color?	dark brown
Eye color?	dark brown
How tall are you?	5 feet something
Where do you live?	house
Do you go to school?	finish, but i wish i could go back to school
If so what one?
*Love life
Single?	yep
If so do you wish you werent?	nope, happy to be one
If you could go out with one person, anyone in the world, who would it be?	michael v
What was the name of your first boyfriend/ girlfriend?	paki mo?
How old were you when you got your first kiss?	chismoso to ah
Do you want to get married one day?	bahala na ang Ama 0:o)
Want to have kids?	yep
*Music
Whats your all time favorite kind of music?	rnb, lyt rock
Who is your all time favorite music artist?	jose mari chan, apo hiking, asin, marami pa
Are you listening to any music right now?	yep
If so, what is it?	hot na hot by masculados ata yun
Do you secretly want to be in a band?	yep
Do you think MTV sucks?	depends
What do you think of Avril Lavigne?	cool
*Random questions from the top of my head
Do you have a cell phone?	yep
Whats the last movie you saw?	d'anothers
Isnt the movie ELF halarious?	yep
What are you wearing right now?	shirt and pants
What does your hair look like?	short and layered
What are 3 things your afraid of?	rats, cockroach, heights
Whats a cd you could listen to 743 times in a row?	madami
Have you ever dated someone online?	nope
Do you enjoy talking on the phone?	depende kung sino kausap, but i prefer person-to-person chats
Have you ever sat on a roof?	does sitting on a veranda counts? :D
Who was the last person you saw?	officemates ko
Do you think one of your friends mom/ dad is hot?	ano daw?
Are you talking to someone right now?	nope
Do you like grapefruit?	ok lang
Did you cry at the movie 'A walk to remember'?	di ko sya napanood e, sowee
Do you love someone?	syempre naman
Do you like coffee?	nope
Are you happy this survey is over?	yes!
Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink

it's been awhile since i updated this blog. you might ask what's keeping me busy? well, aside sa tambak na work dito, ito ang pinagkakaabalahan ko :)

sis ivy had tagged me, at di ko pa nasasagot.. sowi po... well, here goes (sana lang tama tanda ko, hehehe


what i do when im stressed out

depende sa kung anong klaseng stress.. kung stress dito sa work..

• tumayo at maglakad papuntang cr (malayo cr dito kaya makakapag-isip ka, bukod sa marami kang makikitang tanawin tulad ng mga wheelmag, turnilyo at kung an0-an0 pa, hehehe..)
• gumawa ng checklist. ilista ang lahat ng dapat gawin, set priorities kung ano ang sisimulan, at kung di matapos within the day e may nakapila na for the next day

at kung na-i-stress pa rin ay..

• sigawan ang makulit na boss para tumahimik at wag ka muna guluhin
  

kung techno stress naman..

• lumayo sa anomang bagay na may kinalaman sa teknolohiya, tulad ng pc at cell phone
• magrelaks, mag-unwind sa pamamagitan ng pagbabasa ng libro o pakikipagkwentuhan sa mga kaibigan at mahal sa buhay, in person, o pagtingin sa mga tanawin habang nagbibyahe
  

i guess i wanted something new in my life
a new key, to fit a new door
to wait and see a different view in my life
the one i've been waiting for..

bad vibes.. monday pa naman... sheez.. this is just not my day. hope this day ends soon at wag ng humawa pa sa ibang araw..