Sunday, March 27, 2005

sa awa ng Ama, naging mabiyaya ang aming sta cena kaninang umaga. may panibagong lakas na namang magagamit sa pagharap sa mga hamon ng buhay.

nang ako'y umuwi, muli kong namiss ang aming alagang aso. noon, di pa man nabubuksan ang pintuan ay panay na ang tahol nya, tanda ng pagsalubong sa amin. kanina, ang sumalubong sa akin ay katahimikan.... haay, ang buhay nga naman...
natapos na ang sta cena namin kaninang umaga. awa ng Dios, mabiyaya ito at may panibagong lakas na naman para sa pagharap sa mga pagsubok sa buhay.

pag-uwi ko kanina, namiss kong bigla ang aming alagang aso. noon kasi, di pa man nabubuksan ang pintuan ay tahol na ng tahol yun, tanda ng pagsalubong sa amin. haaaay.. ang buhay talaga..

Friday, March 25, 2005

i feel so sad.. our pet dog for 5 years passed away today.. ayaw ko na atang mag-alaga ng aso, or any pet, masyadong nakakaattached e, ang hirap ng feeling.. she tried to get in the house kaso sobrang hinang-hina na sya kaya dun sya sa may doorstep nahiga.. yun na pala yung parang farewell nya sa amin

Monday, March 14, 2005

"..you know how important you are in my life.."

Oh yes, I do now. I am important when you need me. It just so happens that I love myself more now so I'm sorry for you.

Monday, March 07, 2005

You'll be safe here

It's been a while since I last updated my blog, and finally, I had brought myself to fix and update this, heheeh..

anyway, here's my fave song now.. kanta muna tayo

You'll be safe here
Rivermaya
(words and music: rico blanco)

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

good things

there are at least 3 good things that happened today that made me smile..
  • nailabas ko na ang mejo matagal ko ng dinidibdib sa aking new found friend
  • namiss din pala ako ng mga kaibigan ko
  • natapos ko ang karamihan sa dapat kong gawin

at

  • mejo napahinga na ako sa isa, bunga marahil ng unang magandang nangyari sa akin today, hehehe :D

Thursday, December 30, 2004

di ko talaga hilig gumawa ng new year's resolution, but i'll try to make one for this year..

* engage in fitness activities (exercise, sports)
* babawasan ko na kalat sa room ko (ang hirap ata nun)
* enhance my artistic side (meron ba ako nun?)
* set my priorities and choose my friends more carefully


Monday, December 27, 2004

i was planning to make a year-ender post pero mukhang malabo na atang matupad iyun, dahil mahirap magcompose pag nasa netcafe ka lang.. howell.. ang masasabi ko lang, this year has been a colorful one. maraming nangyari, maraming pagsubok, marami ring natutunan. from friendship to love to family relationship, ang daming nangyari. maging sa mga pagtupad ng tungkulin.

new year's wish ko, sana the coming year will be a fruitful one, at sana ay patuloy ang patnubay at paggabay ng Ama. sana rin, dumating na ang tugon sa panata ko sa darating na taon.

new year's resolution ko? i'll try to make my room clatter-free, para di na kami magtatalo ni mom.

Monday, December 13, 2004

it's been awhile since i had updated my blog.. what's the latest? well.. i had told my supervisor that i won't be staying after my contract ends on january 31. my team manager asked me why i'm leaving. duh.. sya pa yung nagtanong.. anyway, i ask her if she wants me to be frank. then i told her that if the company can't give me internet access, which has the same cost to the company, whether we use it or not, what more if i asked for something monetary like salary or benefits. she then goes on the internet issue, saying that they are honing me to be this and that.. oh whatever.. then i said that that is just one of the reasons. the other is that the company doesn't offer any benefits for parents and my priority is my mom. this is just another way of putting what i really felt about the company. that, even though they are an international manufacturing company, their compensation are not that competitive compared to another companies, and that i can find another company that will give me the same, if not a better, compensation. this, i voiced out to our HR manager when he approached me. my supervisor once told me that company relationship should be give and take. i think i had given enough and they had taken enough. where is the counterpart of the package?

nagiging mayabang o ma-pride ba ako? ewan ko. pero ang alam ko, hiniling ko ito sa Ama bilang gabay kung ako ay dapat manatili sa kompanyang ito o dapat ng umalis.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

ang tulay

wish ko lang, totoo ang kasabihang yung tulay at ang tinutulayan ang nagkakatuluyan, hehehe.. haaay buhay.. dakilang tulay ang papel ko ngayon.. pero di naman ako nagseselos sa gurl.. well, paminsan-minsan lang, hehehe.. wish ko lang di sila nag-iikot sa mga blogs at di nila mabasa itong blog ko.. howell...


Wednesday, November 17, 2004

A Man's looks..

When a man looks at you in a different way, dont assume anything. Never assume anything with a man unless clearly and directly spoken. It may not mean that he likes you, rather, he sees something he needs that you may be able to give, like contacts or information.


base from my experience

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Mumu Day

i dont know if what i see is real, or my mind or eyes is playing tricks on me, or maybe, the reflection of the light did it. i was planning to take a picture of the view outside my hotel room, and remembered it on Tuesday, my 2nd morning in Thailand. I took my cam and went to my window. Nothing worth taking, but i still decided to take a picture of it. When i focused my camera, there's a ghost like figure standing below, but when i removed the camera, there was nothing. howeelll.. must be the light. still, i prayed hard and wasnt that comfortable with the room anymore. buti na lang at 2 tulog na lang ako d2, hehehe...

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Thailand adventure

First Step at Thailand

Arrived at NAIA past 12 noon. Texted my 2 bestbuds, si sunget, my kuya here, ana & da king, and ganda that i'll be leaving. Boarded the plane (Thai Airways flight TG 621) around 130pm. The plane took off around 230pm, a few minutes late of the scheduled departure. During the 3-hour flight, what i did is took pictures of the land and the clouds, eat, talk to my boss, eat, watch TV, watch the clouds, and went to the toilet before landing (syemps, para maexperience ko rin ang toilet sa plane, wehehehe)

We arrived 430pm, Thai time, which is 1hr late of Phil time. Ito ang nakakatakot, para kaming si Ninoy na bumababa sa tarmac pagbaba ng plane. Syempre, minus the barilan, hehehe. Buti na lang at di ako sinumpong ng lula, na alam kong patnubay ng Ama. We took a bus to the departure area. (may sira ata dun sa airport ng Thailand kaya ganun).

We arrived at Siam City Hotel, a few minutes before 6pm. Oh, before i forgot, we changed our currency at the airport. Peso to baht is .50, kakagulat, grabe. Around 630p, (Thai Time), we went to Pantip, it's a mall where IT stuff are sold. My boss asked or rather verified directions with the hotel guard on how to get there. The guard said we should turn right at the corner, but my boss said that they turned left before so we followed his memory. Kaso, nagka-amnesia ata sya kaya mali kami ng napuntahan, hehehe.. ang layo ng nalakad namin, papunta sa maling route at pabalik, papunta ulet sa tamang route. Ang sakit ng paa at hita ko grabe! Wala pa kasing tiwala sa mga taga-rito e, hehehe.. siguro mga 2km din ang nalakad namin, or more. Pareho na kaming pawisan dahil mainit ang weather d2, mas mainit pa kesa sa Pinas. Unfortunately, I wasnt able to buy what I wanted kc mahal din ang price d2, mas mahal pa pag kinonvert to peso.

We ate dinner at KFC, and took a tax back to the hotel. The flagdown here is Bt35. Arrived at the hotel a few minutes before 10pm, pinas time. Finished accounting the day's events a few minutes before 11pm, pinas time.

Sorry if I confuse you with time zones, i still didnt adjust my watch to Thai time. Breakfast tomorrowat 7am, Thai time, need to be on the way to the office at 8am, Thai time. Gudnyt blog

Saturday, November 06, 2004

wednesday, nov3
im already in the office at 6am.. magdedeploy kami ng project namin from our server to our singapore server (thru FTP at pcanywhere lang, sayang nga at di kelangang pumunta dun sa site e Laughing )

after lunch, super bc na ako dahil umalis na yung kasama ko nung 9am to attend to his medical requirements sa new employer nya, sinabihan ako ng net admin na pinatatanggalan daw ako ng net access ng team manager namin. hwaaattt!!! Shocked e di sige, wala naman akong magagawa, di ba? hmpf!

around 3pm, tumawag ang project manager namin na nasa singapore that time para maitest yung deployment namin at para na rin sa meetings ng iba pang projects..

sir: ano balita jan?
me: ok pa po ako.. ay, syanga pala, heto ang balita, tinanggalan na ako ng net access, mainit-init pa (with a laugh)
sir: sino nagtanggal?
me: si team manager
sir: si team manager? bakit daw?
me: ewan ko po
sir: (with a pause) o sige, wag muna nating isipin yun, yun munang deployment natin asikasuhin natin.
me: ok po.

wish ko lang maayos nga yun.. (not the deployment but my net access Laughing )

di rin ako nakasamba nung gabi as planned, dahil nag-extend pa ako sa office till 630.

saturday, nov6
im now renting here at an icafe sa me metropolis. kelangang magcheck ng emails at syempre, miss ko na itong ascii forum noh.. haaay.. ang hirap talaga ng walang net access, sana ay makabitan na kami ng landline Crying or Very sad


haaaay.. bukas na ang flight ko.. 244pm thai air.. forgot the flight #, di ko dala yung ticket e.. gud for me at maiiba ang ambiance (spell check) ko for the next 4 days.. sana ay maging ok din kalalabasan nitong trip namin..

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

let me rant

haaay naku.. i hate pressures (and who doesn't?) i also hate it when people don't follow schedules, and mess your schedule as well, creating pressure (domino effect huh). today, my officemate was supposed to orient me on what modules he has developed and was maintaining. but unfortunately, he didn't show up today. he can't orient me tomorrow either, because we will be installing the new version of our project, and the installation plan isn't finished yet. worse is if he won't show up again tomorrow. maybe, i'll just bother other team members and ask help on how to install this in the singapore server.

today, i have lots of free time, but i know that starting tomorrow, my sched will be super hectic, because i need to squeeze in what should be done today. howell.. that's life..

Reflection

i heard this song sang in Pinoy Pop Superstar, and somehow reflects me...

Christina Aguilera - Lyrics

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
nagkita rin kami ng bestfrend ko kahapon.. had lunch at yoshinoya sm north tapos ikot-ikot.. then, nagpunta sya sa amin to see my mom.. grabe, ang layo ng napadparan nya ha, hehehe.. we bought greenwich hawaiian pizza for merienda (spell check please)

niweys, its was fun.. sobrang dami ng wento and catching up on things :) im happy na nagkita kami, and that she's ok and happy din :)

its a bc week ahead... make that two weeks.. sana lang, matapos ko ang dapat tapusin for this week para di ako mag-cram next week.. at sana ay maging ok ang bonding namin ng boss ko next week.. at sana rin, next week e may halong pleasure sa work para bawas stress :D

Monday, November 01, 2004

noong wednesday, oct 27 ko lang nalaman.. biglaan.. nagresign pala ang kaofcmate ko at imbes na sya ang pupunta sa thailand ay ako na ang pupunta! yess!!! grabe, pressured lang dahil ang dami pang gagawin, pero its a challenge, and i know biyaya ito galing sa Ama :)

sa linggo na ang alis ko, nov 7.. di ko pa alam exact flight details but i might post the details here.. almost a week din kami dun.. sana e maging ok ang trip namin..

sana ay patuloy akong samahan ng Ama sa panibagong challenges na ito..

Monday, October 25, 2004

super saya at kilig ng EB last friday. medyo bitin lang pero not bad considering na unang EB yun ng grupo ;)

pagkauwi e di ako makatulog. mukhang super hyper at gising pa ang utak ko. di ko alam kung dahil sa frapp na nainom ko courtesy of daddy chair na dati naman ay walang epekto sa akin, o may nag-iisip sa akin, charing! hehehe..wish ko lang :D

as usual, my body clock woke me up at 6am the next day, naghanda na sa pagdalo sa Tanging Pagtitipon ng hapong iyon. kelangang umalis ng medyo maaga dahil di ko kabisado ang area, plus magmimit kami ni handsomest for lunch (na super late ng dumating, hmpf! :p) para sabay na ring dumalo sa pagtitipon.

after ng pagtitipon, di natuloy ang bestfrend ko na dapat ay pupunta sa haus so pagkauwi ay nagpahinga, at naghanda para sa pulong ng kalihiman sa gabi.

linggo: gumising ng maaga para dumalo sa pagsamba, naidlip sandali at sinamahang mamalengke si mommy, sa hapon naman balik kapilya para tumupad.

kanina, woke up at 6am para maghanda na papasok. ang unang bungad sa akin ng mommy ko ay bad news.. muntik na pala kaming looban kagabi. ngayon ay di ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.. nguni't nananampalataya akong patuloy Nya kaming iingatan.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

thanks sa lahat ng bumati sa akin, super bc ang aking cell sa dami ng txt at fone calls :D thanks sa aking lolah abby na kahit super layo ay di ako nakakalimutan *sniff* sana e magkita na tayo kaya umuwi ka na d2 or pengeng pamasahe at ako ang pupunta jan, wehehehe :D