an email from a man's perspective point of view

75 lessons that MUST be learned in relationships


1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If
he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's
character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from
heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship
that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what
makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not
treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be
friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but
don't let faith make you stupid. God does things
decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then
he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the
relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is
unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like
that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying
when things are not
better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and
aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship
is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he
doesn't want you.

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a
bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he
got them pregnant,
why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before
finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from
his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If
something bothers you, speak up.

23. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn't
call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove
yourself from the situation to let him figure things
out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat
you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not
just mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's
emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of
them...flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes
from within.

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not
willing to follow himself -- double-standard.

31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than
you are...even if he has more education or in a better
job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man,
nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't
have you!

34. Don't compete with other woman, but be aware that
men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is.
Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying,
let him go.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are.

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to
yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else's man.

40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean
that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you
are meant to be with
him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom -- 'get it right'
the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person
in the life of the #1 person in your life.

44. Love is a verb ...

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to
make someone unavailable-available, someone
ungiving-giving, and
someone unloving-loving.

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to
treat you.

47. All men are NOT dogs.

48. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

49. If you don't love self...you can't love anyone else.

50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

51. You need time to heal between
relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage...deal with your issues before pursuing a new
relationship.

52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE
you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE
individuals...look for someone complementary...not
supplementary.

53. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be
Mr. Right.

54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are
getting out of it.

55. Never become your man's "therapist".

56. When actions and words conflict, believe the
actions. Respond to the actions.

57. A real healthy relationship requires two people.
One person can end it - but it takes two to make it
work.

58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving
type"...when a man loves you there is nothing in this
world (within reason) that he
wouldn't do for you.

59. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always
know where you are, and you're always readily
available to him he takes it for granted.

60. Give him his space...let him go out with his boys,
don't pressure him to spend time with you, You cant
force a man to hang out with you.

61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him
you shouldn't.

62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it
against you later.

63. Never move into his mother's house.

64. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend
on anyone.

65. Never co-sign for a man.

66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is
so innocent.

67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.

68. Never let a man mess up your credit.

69. When it's time to let go; let go.

70. Good men should be treated like good men.

71. Don't play games.

72. You can't make a whore into a housewife - or
husband.

73. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you
everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but
get to know others.

74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment,
values, beliefs, personal and career goals, and
socioeconomic status, are important.

75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts. :p

my patience is reeaaaally thiiiin these days so i'd appreciate it if you wont bug me with your little problems ok?

ano kaya ang naghihintay sa dako pa roon?

masettle na po sana lahat ngayon.. Thy will be done

men! bwiset!

banner news today:

SC Kills Meralco rate hike

Text Tax Tinepok na

so i think i should be happy....

Quote for the Day

If you can read the Obituaries Section of the newspaper, then you are alive

buhay pa rin pala ako

im feeling better now hmmm... totoo kayang kissing is healthy?

funny how men have different insights regarding men.. kahit puro married sila e magkakaiba na ang pananaw.. ganundin sa pananaw ng married at single men..

i hope we can settle everything today.. ayaw ko ng abutin ito ng weekend... Father, help me please.. give me the strength and teach me what to do.. may Your will be done..

this is just not my day.. how i wish this day would end and everything will be back as they should be...

not feeling well.. dinagdagan pa ng bungad sa ym stat nya na "yosi break muna" kaya inis at down tuloy ang mood ko ngayon

watched Harry Potter, Prisoner of Azkaban last friday at sm north.. dun na lang kami nanood dahil mejo maulan at para hindi mahirap umuwi.. last full show na inabot namin at natapos yun past 11pm na.. ok yung movie, and contrary to what lani told me, naintindihan at naappreciate ko sya kahit di ko napanood yung first 2 books, hehehehe


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first day of classes ngayon at suspended agad ito dahil sa bagyong frank.. hmm.. puro lalake na ang pangalan ng bagyo ngayon.. dahil ba mas mahirap na silang ispelengin kesa babae

found this lyrics while browsing around.. one of my old time faves..

I Wouldn't Be Here If I Didn't Love You


Traffic lights shining in my eyes
Through the pouring rain
We had a terrible fight tonight
And I can't stand the pain
I've been searching for hours and hours
up and down these lonely streets
I feel scared and alone and so incomplete

I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care
I wouldn't waste your time or my time in a love
that's going nowhere

It's been building up for quite sometime
Something had to break
But to just end it all like this
Would be the worst mistake
I know I don't wanna live without you
I know exactly what you mean to me
And I believe that inside, we still hold the key

I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care
I wouldn't waste your time or my time in a love
that's going nowhere

I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
Freezing cold in the pouring rain
All I wanna do is find you
Let me set you home again

Someday we gonna look back on this
Throw away the cross we had to bear
We'll have a laugh and we'll have a kiss
We'll say all is fair

I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care
I wouldn't waste your life or my life in a love
that's going nowhere

I wouldn't be here baby
(I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you)
I wouldn't be here baby
(I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you)

lunch blow-out sa big buddha courtesy of sir garry, grabe, super busog! *burp* sana next treat e bowling practice naman

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sana maging ok lakad namin mamya...

my fave song now
South Border - Crying Ladies

Rainbow

fallin out fallin in
nothings sure in this world no no
breaking down breaking in
never knowing what lies ahead
we can really never tell it all no no

say goodbye say hello
to a lover or friend
sometimes we could never understand
why some things begin with just love
we can never have it all
no no no ohh

but oh, cant you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

hittin high hittin low
win or lose you should go
yeah yeah
getting warm getting cold
weather can be so good or bad
but baby this is life so dont get mad
no no no

coz ohhh
can't you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

life's full of challenges
not all the time we get what we want
but dont despair my dear
you'll take it each trial
and you'll make it through the storm
coz youre strong
my faith in you is clear
so i say once again
this world's beautiful
let us celebrate life that is so beautiful
so beautiful...

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

lost my cell.. katangahan e.. funny, di ako nanghihinayang sa cell (e 3310 lang naman kc yun, nakablock pa sa sun ) kaya lang, yung sim ko, andun lahat ng numbers

thanks hon, you're teaching me mature love.. i love you

haaay naku! pag talaga yun ang kausap ko e di ko maiwasang kumulo ang dugo.. kung bakit naibigay ko pa ang number d2 sa ofc e

a harmful truth is better than a useful lie.. stat ng ex ng labs ko and tama sya.. di po ako nagiging pessimist, gusto ko lang ng honesty.. haaay.. i miss u na...

currently listening to...

Boyzone - Love Me For A Reason - Lyrics World

Love Me For A Reason

Girl when you hold me, how you control me
You bend and you fold me, anyway you please
It must be easy for you, the loving things that you do
But just a pastime for you, I could never be

And I never know, girl
If I should stay or go
'Cos the games that you play
Keep driving me away

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love

Kisses and caresses, are only minor tests, babe
Of love lead to stresses, between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting, isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl, I'm proud to take a stand

I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride and my mind
So write down this time to time

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love

I'm just a little old-fashioned
It's take more than physical attraction

My initial reaction is honey give me love
Not a facsimile of

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love (love me, love me)
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love

nakakatawa.. mukhang pwede na ako maging sunsilk model ah.. "ganda ng pare ko" hehehe.. haaay.. Ama, Ikaw na po ang bahalang mag-ingat sa Iyong lingkod.. patuloy Mo po sana akong patnubayan at gabayan...

Your: Happy eyes! Your cheerfull, bright and always
want to try something new. Your inquisitive and
quite lovable. You have many friends and will
succseed in life.


What type of eyes do you have?
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currently listening to..

Bryan Adams
I Finally Found Someone
written by: B.Adams/B.Streisand/M.Hamlisch/R.J.Lange
with Barbra Streisand

Bryan: I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet;
Bryan: I finally found the one who makes me feel complete...
Barbara: It started over coffee, we started out as friends;
Barbara: It's funny how from simple things; the best things begin...
Bryan: This time is different;
Barbara: la la la la
Bryan: It's all because of you!..
Bryan: It's better than it's ever been;
Together: Cuz we can talk it through;
Barbara: My favorite line was 'Can I call you sometime?';
Barbara: It's all you had to say...
Together: To take my breath away...

Together: This is it!
Together: Oh, I finally found someone; Someone to share my life;
Together: I finally found the one - to be with every night;
Barbara: Cause whatever I do
Bryan: It's just got to be you!
Together: My life has just begun, I finally found someone...

Bryan: Did I keep you waiting?
Barbara: I didn't mind
Bryan: I apologize
Barbara: Baby, that's fine
Bryan: I would wait forever
Together: Just to know you were mine;
Bryan: Ya Know - I love your hair...
Barbara: Are you sure it looks right?
Bryan: I love what you wear...
Barbara: Isn't it too tight?
Bryan: You're exceptional!
Together: I can't wait for the rest of my life...

Together: Oh This Is It!
Together: I finally found someone; Someone to share my life,
Together: I finally found the one; to be with every night...
Barbara: Cause whatever I do
Bryan: It's just got to be you
Together: My life has just begun; I finally found someone...
Barbara: And whatever I do.
Bryan: It's just got to be you!
Barbara: My life has just begun...
Together: I finally found someone...

a sound advice from a friend that i'll try to live by with my current situation: give him the benefit of the doubt, even if u already doubt him.. he may have his reasons.. act just like before, no expectations.. di ka naman nya inagrabyado o ano...

nang dahil sa eleksyon 2004...

newsflash: mayaman ako sa o.t.
good side: makakaipon ako (sana)
bad side: hassle weekend sched ko, di ako makakapagpulong, waaaah..

muntik na akong mapaaway.. nagmerienda kami sa luk foods, papatawid na kami, e mejo pa-go signal na ang mga sasakyan, pero pwede namang magparaan, kaso me mayabang na driver ang gustong humarurot at muntik pa kaming banggain.. sa inis ko, dumaan ako sa likod nya, sabay palo sa me puwitan ng sasakyan nya.. aba! at bumaba ng sasakyan ng mama, siguro akala nya e matatakot ako sa kanya.. well, dinedma ko lang sya, tuloy-tuloy ako sa pagtawid, hehehe.. yung nasa likod nya na sasakyan e biglang napapreno at binusinahan sya, buti nga sa kanya, hehehe.. akala nga ng boss ko e kung ano na.. siguro nga, nakita nya rin ang kaha ng boss ko kaya umalis na lang, weheheh

may 8, 2004, saturday.. ang daming nangyari..


because i was wearing pink, and blooming daw ako that day...

from an email

The Gift

A young man thought of buying a gift for his girlfriend. After such deliberation he finally settled into buying a pair of gloves. He asked his sister to accompany him to the ladies shop to make his purchase. His sister bought 2 panties for herself. The two packages were mixed up on the counter so his sister got the gloves. The young man sent the package to his sweetheart not knowing the contents of the package were the 2 panties his sister bought for herself. Together with the package came the note.

Dear Sweetheart,

This gift is to tell you that I am keeping in touch for your birthday. I chose this gift to replace the one I tore during our first date, because since then you have not been in the habit of wearing any when we go out on evenings.

If it had not been for my sister, I would have bought the short one. The saleslady from whom I bought them showed me the pair she was wearing. She told me that she had been wearing them for three consecutive weeks and it had not been soiled at all. It was very soft to touch.

I asked the saleslady to wear it and it looked very nice on her. I do not know your exact size but I thought I am in a better position than any one to guess since I hold yours most of the time.

They will naturally be a little deep to wear and sometimes will have the tendency to smell, so put a little talcum powder before you wear them.

Be sure to keep them off while cleaning for they are liable to shrink. I hope you will accept them with the thought that I gave them to you. Please wear them on Friday evenings so I will always have the pleasure of removing them.

Always,

Honey

P.S. I will look forward to kiss the front as well as the back of them. The saleslady said that the latest style is wearing them unbuttoned to give the carefree look. If they are small, send them back to me so I could stretch them by putting them on mine. Don't forget to put my favorite scent on. I love you....

yesterday was ok! dumalo ako ng panata ng ascii kagabi, dinner e tinreat ako ni joseph, payback time e then nagkita rin kami ng lil bro ko, after around 3 years kaming di nagkita.. syempre, super daming chica, plus nakita ko rin ang iba pang kachokaran ko sa ascii like jon r na super tagal ding nawala..

my ym stat:intimidating ba ako? ha? ha? ha? sagot!

so ano sagot nyo?

ms lonely: it's so nice to be happy -- my current ym stat describes me

buti at nagpunta ako sa alabang badminton EB at super nag-enjoy ako, pramis! kahit di ako naglaro, e super ok ang bonding ang masasabi ko lang, "sana maulet muli!"

ok rin ang nangyari nung nagpunta ako sa ascii, nakita ko mga katropa ko na sabay ko ring nawala, at sumulpot, hehehe

ever wondered why "business" is spelled where you can mispronounce it as "busyness"?

while listening to my mp3 collection.. the lyrics of this song caught my attention, so i deceided to post it here...



M2M LYRICS



"Everything"


It's been nine days, eight hours

Forty minutes, ten seconds

Since you called

I've been so crazy

I've just about

Taken our picture

Off the wall

It's been three months

Over hundred days

Since you held my hand

And I miss you in

A thousand ways

Will I ever see you again?



[BRIDGE:]

How did it change so fast?

(I won't give you

To the past)

I really thought it'd last



[CHORUS:]

All that we had was

So unbelieveable

Now that it's gone

It's just inconceivable

Still in my dreams

You were so damn beautiful

How could it be

That you ruined my

Everything

Everything

Everything?



Everything

Everything

Everything



It seems like

Everyone everywhere's in love

So, where are you?

And I remember

You couldn't get enough

Said you felt it too

So didn't you



[Repeat bridge]

[Repeat chorus twice]



Everything, everything, everything

Everything, everything, everything



Ooh, hooh

You're really my everything

Everything, everything

Everything, everything, everything



Everything, everything, everything

Everything, everything, everything

Everything, everything, everything

Everything, everything, everything



It's been nine days, eight hours

Forty minutes, ten seconds

Three months, a hundred days

And I miss you in

A thousand ways



[Repeat bridge]

[Repeat chorus]

Forrest Gump!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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You are Gambit from the X-men!

Your style and suave is a real hit with the ladies!
devoted you may not be, but you know what you
want and when you want it. But.. there is
anlways rom for change!


Which of the X-men do you resemble most?
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thanks to ron, me bago na akong motto.. at ym status message na rin... won't sweat it

my color for the day is blue ..

something i browsed thru frendster..

What Kind of GF Are You Quiz | Girlfriends and Boyfriends | Personality Test: "

"

You're a Dream GF!
You're a definite keeper. You're not needy or clingy and you're almost as much fun to be around as one of the guys! You know exactly how much space your guy needs and how to keep your own groove on while in a relationship

absent ako yesterday.. actually, mejo ok na pakiramdam ko kahapon dahil nakatulog naman ako ng mabuti ng nagdaang gabi.. pero di na lang ako pumasok, para makapahinga naman sa radiation ng computer.. dumating din kahapon ang pldt para matransfer na ang aming fone.. baka bukas daw e me dial tone na kami, sana nga.. mababago rin daw ang number namin..

haaay.. sana e magtuloy-tuloy na ang paggaling ko.. di ko pa nga naiwewento yung nangyari sa akin last "holy week"

i'm sick!!! parang di nga ako nakatulog kagabi dahil barado ang ilong ko at parang puro plema dibdib ko.. haaay.. ito ata epekto ng sobrang init

maalinsangang mainit kagabi kaya di ako agad nakatulog.. umulan pala kaya siguro napasarap ang tulog ko, ayaw ko na tuloy bumangon kaninang umaga..

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work na work ang mood ko today, kaya lang, kainis at di ko mabuksan yung db.. magkakasakit pa ata ako, sobrang sakit ng lalamunan ko

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iba pala pag nagkasabay-sabay ang katopakan ng tropa, lalo na ni lil sis at daddy, kawawang handsomest, umaapaw na ang inbox.. kung ako nga e umiiyak na ang inbox, pano ba naman, yahoo email ko ang ginamit...

its been awhile since i posted.. wala lang, tinatamad.. last thursday e pumasok na ang matet ng ofc.. 2 na kaming babae sa team mukhang ok naman sya, super daldal din, preho ko, hehehe 2 days lang ang pasok this week, pero super bc week for me, dahil maglilipat na naman kami ng bahay.. after 2 yrs sa tinitirhan ko sa tandang sora e lilipat na naman kami, and sa tingin ko e di rin kami magtatagal sa lilipatan namin.. haaay.. buhay talaga ng gypsy..

last saturday, sabay kaming sumamba ni mom, at dinalaw na rin namin si ka jenny para magpaalam.. at ako e para maningil sa pinramis nya sa akin howell.. di ko pa rin alam kung sino o san talaga ang kapalaran ko...

something i browsed around...

A Crazy Employee Evaluation Test


by: prankster

Name: _____________________ Date: _______________

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KNOWLEDGE:

__ Really knows what he's doing.

__ Knows just enough to be dangerous.

__ Only half a brain and is dangerous.

__ His coffee cup has a higher I.Q.

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ACCURACY:

__ Does excellent work is not preoccupied.

__ Pretty good accuracy with large numbers.

__ Must take off shoes to count above ten.

__ What's a number?

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ATTITUDE:

__ Extremely co-operative.

__ Brown noser in good standing.

__ Often annoys co-workers and fights.

__ Doesn't care, never did, never will.

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RELIABILE:

__ Works so hard he gets extra days off.

__ Very dependable.

__ Rely on his being first one out the door.

__ Absolutely totally worthless.

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APPEARANCE:

__ Extremely neat and clean.

__ Looks great on his day off.

__ Flies take him over fresh manure.

__ Dirt, filthy, smelly, and ugly.

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PERFORMANCE:

__ Works hard if money is involved.

__ Does great work--at evaluation time.

__ Works well after ten cups of coffee.

__ Couldn't do less if he were in a coma.

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LEADERSHIP:

__ Carries chainsaw and gets good results.

__ Macho attitude. Commands total disgust.

__ One time some listened to him whine.

__ Unable to lead even the most ignorant.

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I understand that I have been counseled and understand my rights under the privacy act of 1974. I further acknowledge that I am as stupid as a football bat, and I will make some attempt to correct my deficiencies.



_______________________________________

Employee signature

something i browsed around...

A Crazy Employee Evaluation Test


by: prankster

Name: _____________________ Date: _______________

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KNOWLEDGE:

__ Really knows what he's doing.

__ Knows just enough to be dangerous.

__ Only half a brain and is dangerous.

__ His coffee cup has a higher I.Q.

---

ACCURACY:

__ Does excellent work is not preoccupied.

__ Pretty good accuracy with large numbers.

__ Must take off shoes to count above ten.

__ What's a number?

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ATTITUDE:

__ Extremely co-operative.

__ Brown noser in good standing.

__ Often annoys co-workers and fights.

__ Doesn't care, never did, never will.

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RELIABILE:

__ Works so hard he gets extra days off.

__ Very dependable.

__ Rely on his being first one out the door.

__ Absolutely totally worthless.

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APPEARANCE:

__ Extremely neat and clean.

__ Looks great on his day off.

__ Flies take him over fresh manure.

__ Dirt, filthy, smelly, and ugly.

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PERFORMANCE:

__ Works hard if money is involved.

__ Does great work--at evaluation time.

__ Works well after ten cups of coffee.

__ Couldn't do less if he were in a coma.

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LEADERSHIP:

__ Carries chainsaw and gets good results.

__ Macho attitude. Commands total disgust.

__ One time some listened to him whine.

__ Unable to lead even the most ignorant.

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I understand that I have been counseled and understand my rights under the privacy act of 1974. I further acknowledge that I am as stupid as a football bat, and I will make some attempt to correct my deficiencies.



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something i browsed around...

A Crazy Employee Evaluation Test


by: prankster

Name: _____________________ Date: _______________

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KNOWLEDGE:

__ Really knows what he's doing.

__ Knows just enough to be dangerous.

__ Only half a brain and is dangerous.

__ His coffee cup has a higher I.Q.

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ACCURACY:

__ Does excellent work is not preoccupied.

__ Pretty good accuracy with large numbers.

__ Must take off shoes to count above ten.

__ What's a number?

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ATTITUDE:

__ Extremely co-operative.

__ Brown noser in good standing.

__ Often annoys co-workers and fights.

__ Doesn't care, never did, never will.

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RELIABILE:

__ Works so hard he gets extra days off.

__ Very dependable.

__ Rely on his being first one out the door.

__ Absolutely totally worthless.

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APPEARANCE:

__ Extremely neat and clean.

__ Looks great on his day off.

__ Flies take him over fresh manure.

__ Dirt, filthy, smelly, and ugly.

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PERFORMANCE:

__ Works hard if money is involved.

__ Does great work--at evaluation time.

__ Works well after ten cups of coffee.

__ Couldn't do less if he were in a coma.

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LEADERSHIP:

__ Carries chainsaw and gets good results.

__ Macho attitude. Commands total disgust.

__ One time some listened to him whine.

__ Unable to lead even the most ignorant.

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I understand that I have been counseled and understand my rights under the privacy act of 1974. I further acknowledge that I am as stupid as a football bat, and I will make some attempt to correct my deficiencies.



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types of kisses


by: charlie

TYPES OF KISSES:

Below you will find a variety of kiss types. If you find some that catch your fancy, feel free to try them :-)

Butterfly Kiss - With your faces less than a breath away, open and close your eyelids against your partners. If done correctly, the fluttering sensation will match the one in your heart.



Cheek Kiss - A friendly, "I really like you" kiss. Often the preferred kissing method of a first date. With your hands on your partner's shoulders, gently brush your lips across her cheek.


Earlobe Kiss - Gently sip and suck the earlobe. Avoid louder sucking noises as ears are sensitized noise detectors.


Eskimo Kiss - With your faces less than a breath apart, gently rub your noses together.


Eye Kiss - Hold your partner's head with both hands and slowly move their head in the direction you wish your kiss to go... then slowly kiss up towards your partner's eyes and give them a tender kiss on top of their closed eyes.


Eyelid Kiss - While your partner is resting/sleeping with eyes closed, very very gently kiss the spot right below their browbone. A very intimate kiss.


Finger Kiss - While laying together gently suck on their fingers. This can be very seductive and pleasurable.


Foot Kiss - An erotic and romantic gesture. It may tickle, but relax and enjoy it! To give a toe kiss by gently suck the toes and then lightly kissing the foot. It helps to gently massage the base of the foot while performing the kiss.


Forehead Kiss - The "motherly" kiss or "just friends" kiss. The forehead kiss can be a comforting kiss to anyone. Simply brush your lips lightly across the crown of their head.


Freeze Kiss (or Melt Kiss) - Experiment with this fun kiss. Put a small piece of ice in your mouth, then open mouth and kiss your partner, passing them the ice with your tongue. It's an erotic and sensual french kiss with a twist of cold.


French Kiss - The kiss involving the tongue. Some call this the "Soul Kiss" because the life and soul are thought to pass through the mouth's breath in the exchange across tongues. Surprisingly, the French call this "The English Kiss".


Fruity Kiss - Take a small piece of fruit and place between your lips (juicy fruits such as grapes, strawberries, small pieces of pineapple or mango are ideal). Kiss your partner and nibble one half of the piece of fruit while they nibble the other until it breaks in half, allowing the juice to run into your mouths.


Hand Kiss - Gently raise her hand to your lips. Lightly brush your lips across the top of her hand. Historically this kiss was performed with a bow, which showed deference to a lady.


Hickey Kiss - The object is not to draw blood, but to gently leave a mark that will prove your interlude was not a dream. This is often included in erotic foreplay.


Hostage Kiss - Cover your lips with tape and get your love's attention. When they come near, make noises like you're trying to tell them something and motion as if you can't get the tape off. Once they remove the tape from you to hear what you're trying to say tell them: "I've been saving my lips all day just for you!" Then kiss your love passionately!
Hot and Cold Kiss - Lick your partner's lips so that they're warm, and then gently blow on them. The sudden cold blast makes for a sensual explosion, and they will often try it on you next, as well as get very passionate.


Mistletoe Kiss - Surprise your lover by capturing them with a gentle holiday kiss under the mistletoe. This is also a good method for shyer individuals to steal a kiss from a potential lover.


Letter Kiss - Send your lover a kiss in a love letter by writing the letter x several times in a row at the bottom of a letter such as XXXXX.


Lick Kiss - Just before kissing, gently run your tongue along you partners lip whether it be the top or bottom one depending on the position of your lips. Very sensual.

Neck Nibble Kiss - Gently nibble up and down your partners neck. End with a gentle kiss on the lips.


Nip Kiss - This kiss can create a very erotic sensation. While kissing your partner, ever so gently nibble on their lips. You must be very careful not to bite to hard or hurt your partner. When done correctly, this kiss ignites wonderful sensations.

Reverse Lips Kiss - It involves standing above your lover and kissing them from over their head. This way, each kisser can take the hyper-sensitive bottom lip of thier lover in their mouths, and GENTLY draw blood to the surface of the lip by nibbling and sucking. A very sensuous, connecting kiss.


Searching The Cavern - Use the lips and tongue to gently tickle and kiss your lover's navel. Vary speeds and stroke to change sensation. Invigorating and intoxicating.
Shoulder Kiss - Simply come from behind, embrace her, and kiss the top of her shoulder. This is a sensual, loving kiss.


Sip Kiss - Take a small sip of your favorite drink. Leaving a little bit of it on your lips, kiss your partner. It is a unique way to create a sensual feeling and your partner will enjoy it.


Talking Kiss - Whisper sweet nothings into your partner's mouth. If caught in the act, simply say as Chico Marx, "I wasn't kissing her. I was whispering into her mouth."

Teaser Kiss - Starting on the forehead, a sweet short kiss on lips, then move up the arms up to her hand, kiss her hand, then come back up her arm, to her face and then lightly kiss her lips till she wants a passionate kiss.


The Buzzing Kiss - Gently place your lips against your lover's neck , behind their ear. Now, send a shudder through their skin by gently growling and humming, vibrating your lips and cheeks as you do so. Move up and down the neck, over the bones of the face and lips. Stimulating and erotic when done correctly.


The Whipped Cream Kiss - Dip your finger into some cool whip or whipped cream of your choice. Lick it off slowly, then embrace your partner and kiss them deeply letting their tongue slip over yours for a wonderfully sweet kiss. It's very seductive and passionate.


Tiger Kiss - Quietly sneak up behind your partner making sure they do not know what you are going to do. Out of the blue, grab them and gently bite their neck. Make sure to get a few good growls in too. This will surely surprise them.

Trickle Kiss - Take a sip of a favourite drink and trickle it slowly into partner's mouth while kissing.


Tongue Sucking - A variation of the French kiss. During an open-mouth kiss gently suck on your partner's tongue (not too hard because it may hurt). Very sexy :-)

Quickie Kiss - When you're in a rush. Often the nose gets it rather than the lips.

Vacuum Kiss - While kissing open-mouthed, slightly suck in as if you were sucking the air from your partners mouth. This is a playful kiss.


Wake Up Kiss - Before your partner awakes lean over and kiss their cheek and move over giving soft kisses until you reach their lips. Definitely a more than pleasant way to wake up!

boredom to the max.. dont tell me na sanlinggo akong ganito..

next week e darating na pala yung kasama ko.. sana e ok sya, at makasundo ko..

pansin ko lang.. ang dali kong mapaiyak sa mga telenovelas ngayon.. haaay.. ganito siguro talaga pag malungkot ka at di mo maexpress.. dun mo na lang nailalabas para kahit pano e gumaan ang pakiramdam ng di rin napapansin ng iba...

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haaay.. sana makorner ko na ang boss ko.. masama sa akin ang nababakante, kung ano-ano ang naiisip....

nasimulan kc ng monday kaya muntik ng nakatayo ako sa mrt the whole week papasok. buti na lang at panggabi ako kahapon kaya naiba, hehehe.. kahapon e walang tigil na kainan sa ofc. nagtreat ng lunch sina miss adel at louie. bday din ng presidente namin kaya dami ring food noong merienda. nung dinner e kala ko di na ako makakakain, hehehe :D

2nd day ko ngayong nakatayo sa mrt mula north hanggang magallanes.. nasimulan kasi kahapon na lunes.. wag naman sanang for the whole week ito.. nasimulan din kahapong late ako nakaalis ng bahay kaya yun din ang nangyari ngayon. buti na lang at nagsibalikan na ang mga nag-strike na gwardya ng mrt kaya naging mabilis at maayos ang pagpasok ng mga pasahero...

ggrrrrrr.... nang dahil sa sampung piso, nag-init ang ulo ng driver ng fx na sinasakyan ko (plate number PVZ 410) at pinaharurot ang fx ng di pa nga nakakababa ng maayos ang pasahero. Muntik pa akong mahulog! naku! ang sarap batukan talaga, pasalamat sya at nasa likod ako ng fx nakaupo. at pasalamat din ako at hinawakan ako ng Ama kaya di ako nahulog. haaaay naku.. wala lang syang baryang P10 at ganundin ang isang pasahero nya (P20 ang pera) ay nag-init na.. magpapabarya nga sana kaya bumaba e pinaharurot na. hindi man lang chineck kung wala ng bang ibang bababa.

nakakainis mang isipin, e mukhang tama nga ang impression ko sa halos kasabayan ko lang magsimula dito sa pdi.. power hungry nga ba ang tawag dun? howell.. to each his own, di naman ako pababayaan ng Ama

breather taken! kulang lang siguro ako sa exercise to clear my mind.. kelangan atang mag-gym na.. pero saka na, pag naregular na ako d2, mahirap gumasta lalo't di pa stable ang katayuan ko d2...

lonely while happy... this will pass... just need a breather.. hope i can get one...

navirusan ata mail server namin.. yahoo din e me ganitong virus.. ang ganda pa ng email msg nya ha, tatakutin ka..

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Resto also offers a mini-zoo

By Joyce Mejillano

Polangui, Albay

WANT to experience savoring your favorite lunch while a nearly three-meter-long python watches in peace, or a crocodile opens its long mouth in an expression of “hello,” or an eagle at your back appears ready to partake of your food if offered?

You don’t have to go to a zoo to do that. Just drop by a restaurant-bar in Polangui town in Albay along the Maharlika Highway, about 45 minutes drive from Legazpi City and a few minutes’ ride from the town proper.

Visitors from Metro Manila will find the place special for food lovers, especially of delicious “lutong-bahay (home-cooked dishes),” as well as animal lovers.

Bastian Restaurant and Wildlife Center satisfies not only one’s taste for native dishes and his favorite cuisine, but also his wish to commune with erstwhile wild animals.

“I’ve been an animal lover ever since, that’s why when I put up this bar and restaurant, I decided to put a mini-zoo,” said John Liao, the owner.

Liao said starting the mini-zoo was not that difficult. He started with two eagles donated by a friend. “When my other friends learned about it, they also donated other wild animals like deer, snakes, iguanas, more eagles and others,” he said.

At present, he has more than 40 wild animals, which include the endangered bleeding heart pigeon, oriental civets and a chattering lorry.

Just a few steps from the main dining area is a pond full of different fish species and water lilies.

“While waiting for their orders, customers can stroll around first without additional charge and see those wonderful creatures, some of which are already considered endangered. They can also go fishing in the pond nearby,” Liao said.

Armando Moreno, Liao’s caretaker since Bastian was established in 1994, said the business started as a small “carinderia (eatery)” catering to employees of a nearby communications company and motorists traveling the south-bound road.

Moreno said they spent at least P500 per day to maintain the zoo.

School children also come to the place for an educational tour and see the wild animals.

The mini-zoo is accredited by the Department of Environment and Natural Resources.

“In business you should think something uncommon that might also click among your customers,” Liao advised. “I want to make this place very different from others so that at least when my customers leave my place, they will remember something weird about it.”

friday

nagkaroon ng sunog sa likod ng haus ng sis ko sa sucat, buti na lang di sila nadamay.. ang takot ko nga e, pero mabait talaga ang Ama, iningatan sila.. sabi ko nga sa sis ko e nakiuso pa sya sa super ferry na nasunog while nagbibyahe..

saturday

bday celebration ni mommy! dumating ang kuya ko minus his kids, pero ok lang, at least nagkita rin kami after 5 years din ata.. late dumating sis ko with her husband and daughter, tapos parang takot pa yung niece ko sa kuya ko dahil bagong mukha.. pero ok na rin, kahit pano e nagkasama-sama kaming magkakapamilya :D

Antibiotic use increases breast cancer risk, according to a new study. But after scrutinizing the study, I’m leaning toward linking grant-hungry researchers and a publicity-hungry medical journal with reprehensible sensationalism.

The study in the Feb. 18 issue of the Journal of the American Medical Association (search) reported that all levels of antibiotic use were associated with increased risk of breast cancer and death from breast cancer.

The study triggered an avalanche of “Antibiotics Linked to Breast Cancer” news reports, most of which were sensibly tempered with “don’t panic,” “don’t stop taking antibiotics” and “more research is needed” caveats.

Researchers compared antibiotic use among 2,266 women with breast cancer (search) and 7,953 women without breast cancer, all of whom belonged to a large health plan in western Washington state. Data on antibiotic use was obtained from the health plan’s records.

Antibiotic use for 1-50 cumulative days reportedly was associated with a 50 percent increase in breast cancer risk. Antibiotic use for more than 1,000 cumulative days reportedly was associated with a 100 percent increase in risk.

The results sound scary, but here’s why they’re not.

No evidence was presented that antibiotics (search) were the biological cause of any of the cases of breast cancer considered in the study. This is no surprise since no demonstrable biological explanation exists as to why antibiotics would cause cancer in the first place.

Without a plausible biological link between antibiotic use and breast cancer, the researchers relied exclusively on statistical analysis, a potentially useful tool provided the data to be analyzed are of reasonable quality. These study data, however, fall way short.

The average study subject was about 60 years old. But study subjects who had taken antibiotics had been enrolled in the health plan for only about 20 years on average. Since the sole source for data on antibiotic use was the health plan’s records, about 40 years of data, on average, about potential antibiotic use were missing for each study subject.

Even more data is missing for the 18 percent of the study subjects who supposedly never took antibiotics. These women had only been in the health plan for about 10 years on average.

But just because they didn’t take antibiotics while they were enrolled in the health plan, doesn’t mean they didn’t take antibiotics before enrollment. Indeed, some of the supposed “never users” could actually have been extremely heavy users of antibiotics prior to enrollment in the health plan.

Since the vast majority of Americans have taken antibiotics at some point, it’s difficult to believe that so many of the study subjects had never taken antibiotics.

This is a crucial data gap since the researchers claim that even a single day of antibiotic use increased breast cancer risk. The absence of complete data on lifetime antibiotic use renders comparisons between antibiotic users and “non-users” meaningless.

The study data are also faulty in terms of level of exposure to antibiotics. The researchers assumed exposure to antibiotics could be measured either by number of antibiotic prescriptions written or by the number of days prescribed for antibiotic use according to prescription records.

But patients commonly fail to complete courses of antibiotics prescribed by their doctors. Patients with a prescription for 10 days of antibiotics may feel better after just a few days and cease taking their medicine. A 10-day prescription, therefore, doesn’t necessarily mean 10 days of use. It may, in fact, mean much less use.

So the researchers really can’t say that more antibiotic use increases breast cancer risk because they really don’t know who took more antibiotics.

Though the researchers acknowledged their study doesn’t prove antibiotics cause breast cancer and that many other possible explanations for their reported results could exist, they called for more research ¯ that is, more taxpayer-funded research like this study.

That’s pretty twisted, though. The researchers used obviously deficient data to stir up a frightening, but dubious controversy that they hope to milk in terms of continued research funding.

Antibiotics have been used since the 1940s ¯ to the great benefit of public health. More than 100 million prescriptions are written in the U.S. every year. If antibiotics were a cancer risk, it’s very likely that such a link would have been observed long ago.

Source:
FOXNews.com - Views - Junk Science - Antibiotic Link Is Cancer Baloney

walang pasok kahapon, EDSA I celebration. kasabay nito ay sumabog or nasunog ang lalagyan ng mga armas sa camp crame bandang 4pm.. ano ang cause? i still dont know.. kanina e inanounce ni GMA na holiday sa Aug 20 or 21 ba yun dahil sa death anniversary ni ninoy. di ko lang sure kung iyun ay working or non working holiday...

i just want to share this email that i received last tuesday.. di ko lang naipost dahil mejo bc ang beauty ko..

This play won in the palanca awards, dulaang isang yugto category (daw).
Twenty Questions
Ni Juan Ekis
MGA TAUHAN
Jigs - Fresh grad. Kabarkada ni Yumi. Magtatrabaho bilang researcher sa isang financial firm
Yumi - Commercial Model. Kabarkada ni Jigs. 2 years ahead kay Jigs.
TAGPO
Gabi. Sa isang kwarto ng isang beach resort. Naglalatag ng kumot si Jigs sa sahig habang inaayos ni Yumi ang kanyang higaan.
YUMI Sige na, Jigs. Huwag ka nang magpaka-gentle man. Naaawa ako sa¹yo e. Tabi na tayo sa kama.
JIGS Hindi, okay lang ako dito.
YUMI Huwag ka nang maarte. As if naman re-rapin kita no. Malaki naman itong kama e. Hatiin na lang natin sa gitna.
JIGS Sure ka?
YUMI Hindi mo naman siguro ako mamanyakin no?
JIGS (Matatawa) Okay ka lang?
YUMI Kung gusto mo, gamitin na lang natin iyang kumot na divider.
JIGS Good idea.
Isasampay nila ang kumot mula sa kisame para mahati ang kama sa gitna. Magsesettle down ang dalawa. Ilalabas ni Jigs ang libro niya: ³Puppy Love and other Stories² ni F. Sionil Jose. Si Yumi naman ay magpapatugtog ng Japanese Zen Music habang nagsa-zazen.
YUMI Do you mind?
JIGS No, go ahead. I¹m just reading.
Magsa-zazen si Yumi. Magbabasa si Jigs. Pareho silang di maka-concentrate. Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player niya.
YUMI I can¹t believe our friends.
JIGS Oo nga e.
YUMI Dapat ginagawa nila ?to sa mga bagong pasok sa barkada o kaya sa bagong...ay oo nga pala. Bagong graduate ka. Congrats.
JIGS Thanks.
YUMI So what¹re your plans?
JIGS Kinukuha akong researcher sa ADB. Kinukuha rin ako ng BPI sa OTP nila.
YUMI Wow naman. In demand.
JIGS Di naman masyado. Who the hell invented this tradition anyway?
YUMI (Matatawa) You won¹t believe it.
JIGS Ikaw?
YUMI Malay ko ba na mabibiktima rin ako nito balang-araw.
JIGS So why did you start it?
YUMI Wala ka pa sa tropa nun e. Freshman ka pa lang siguro noon. Wala lang. Napagtripan lang namin si Ronald. E may crush siya kay Meg. Noong unang beses magpunta rito ng barkada, sabi ko, magsimula kami ng
tradition. Ilo-lottery namin ang pangalan ng mga lalaki at ng mga babae. Kung sino ang mabubunot, silang dalawa ang pagsasamahin sa isang kwarto sa loob ng tatlong araw. And then, we¹ll all see what happens. Pero dinaya namin noon yung kay Ronald at Meg. Puro Ronald at Meg ang mga pangalan na nakalagay sa lottery.
JIGS (Tatawa) Ang sama ninyo!
YUMI Kaya nga nakarma na ako e.
JIGS So is our case, dinaya? O talagang lottery?
YUMI (Teasing) Ano sa dalawa ang gusto mo?
JIGS Feeling ko may nagtrip sa¹kin sa barkada e.
YUMI Excuse me po, dalawa tayong biktima dito. I don¹t see any reason kung bakit tayong dalawa ang sasadyaing biktima this year, unless may crush ka sa¹kin na di ko alam at alam nila (tatawa).
JIGS Baka ikaw (tatawa).
YUMI The success rate of this tradition is 100% so far.
JIGS I was here na the 2nd time. Si Chris at si Cia ang biktima.
YUMI And last year were Rod and Kay. They¹re getting married kailan?
Sa June yata.
JIGS What do you expect? Ikukulong mo ang isang lalaki at isang babae sa isang kwarto for three days, imposibleng walang mangyari doon!
YUMI That was exactly my point. (Ngingiti)
JIGS E kung may madisgrasya?
YUMI Ano¹ng disgrasya?
JIGS Alam mo na ?yun!
Hahawiin ni Yumi ang divider nilang kumot.
YUMI Ano? Sex? Pa¹no kung magsex sila? Nakakatawa ka naman. Di mo masabi.
JIGS Ang alin?
YUMI Ang sex!
JIGS Hah!
YUMI Sige nga sabihin mo nga?
JIGS Para kang tanga. Tumigil ka nga.
YUMI Shet, Jigs. Graduate ka na totoy ka pa rin!
JIGS Excuse me?
YUMI Sabihin mo nga: ³Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!²
JIGS Para kang bata, Yumi ha.
YUMI You used to call me ate Yumi when you were in third year.
JIGS Well, graduate na po ako, ate Yumi.
Tahimik.
JIGS Hmmm. I wonder if we¹re gonna last three days.
YUMI (Teasing) Bakit? Ayaw mo sa¹kin?
Di sasagot si Jigs.
YUMI We¹re gonna survive this one.
JIGS What makes you so sure?
YUMI No offense, Jigs. I honestly find you very attractive pero I¹ve no time for this. Alam mo naman siguro na kaka'
JIGS Same here.
YUMI Same here what? Na you find me attractive o you don¹t have time for this? (Matatawa)
Di sasagot si Jigs. Tahimik. Io-on ulit ni Yumi ang CD player at ipagpapatuloy ang zazen. Itatabi ni Jigs ang libro. Nawalan na siya ng ganang magbasa. Pupunta siya sa ref. Bubuksan niya ito.
JIGS Hah! (Sarcastic) Perfect! Red Wine! How very conducive.
YUMI May chips ba diyan?
JIGS Sa awa ng Diyos, may tsibog naman.
Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player. Tatayo siya at kukuha ng chips sa ibabaw ng ref.
YUMI Since we¹re gonna be stuck naman with each other for three days, might as well make the best out of it di ba? I-enjoy na lang natin.
JIGS What do you mean?
YUMI Get the wine, let¹s have a drink! 50 hours to go na lang and we¹re gonna be the first failure of this tradition.
JIGS Oo nga. (Kukunin ang wine. Maglalagay sa dalawang baso.) When they chose Cia and Chris, naiintindihan ko pa e. Lalo na sina Rod and Kay. Kung baga, tinulungan lang natin silang umamin sa isa¹t isa. Pero us...
YUMI Weird ng barkada natin no?
JIGS To our barkada and our weird traditions!
YUMI To us, the first failure of this tradition!
Magto-toast sila at iinom.
JIGS Sige, ate Yumi. Let¹s make our stay here more interesting...
YUMI What¹s with the ate?
JIGS Fine...
Bubuksan ni Yumi ang chips. Uupo sila pareho sa sahig para
magkwentuhan.
JIGS Let¹s play twenty questions.
YUMI Sige! Ano yon?
JIGS Each of us will have ten questions each. Tatanungin kita, tatanungin mo ako, mga gusto nating malaman sa isa¹t isa. Alternate tayo. Pero the thing here is, you can¹t ask the question that I already asked.
YUMI That¹s pretty interesting.
JIGS At bawal magsinungaling.
YUMI Fair enough. Pero whatever is said inside this room remains in the room. Ok?
JIGS Of course. You wanna start?
YUMI No. I want to ask the last question. (Ngingiti at kikindatan si Jigs)
JIGS Smart move. Game. First question: Ano ang greatest frustration mo sa buhay?
YUMI Nge. Ang korni naman ng tanong mo. Walang ka-challenge-challenge. Ask me something na mag-iisip naman ako.
JIGS Simula pa lang e.
YUMI Sige. Ano nga ba...?
JIGS Akala ko ba walang ka-challenge-challenge?
YUMI Wag kang maingay, nag-iisip ako...I¹m a frustrated ballet dancer.
JIGS Talaga?
YUMI I took lessons when I was six pero umayaw ako. Wala kasi akong disiplina e. Mas gusto kong makipaglaro sa mga kalaro ko. Pero I really enjoy watching ballet dancers. When I see them dance parati kong naiisip na sana, ako rin. There! Ang dali naman ng tanong mo. Walang thrill.
JIGS Appetizer lang. Yari ka sa¹kin mamaya.
YUMI We¹ll see. Ako naman: Did you ever have doubts about your sexuality? I mean, kahit minsan ba, naisip mo na bakla ka?
JIGS Never.
YUMI Bilis ng sagot a.
JIGS Coz I never entertained the idea.
YUMI Homophobe ka ba?
JIGS Alternate tayo sa tanungan, di ba?
YUMI So, not once? Kahit konti? Kahit what if lang?
JIGS I¹m straight, okay?
YUMI I¹m not asking if you¹re gay or not. I¹m asking kung...
JIGS Never nga.
YUMI We all thought na you were gay. Well at least nung first few months mo sa tropa before you introduced your girlfriend to us.
JIGS What?! You thought I was gay?!
YUMI E pa¹no kasi, masyado kang mabait. Ang pogi-pogi mo, pero parang allergic ka sa mga babae. Over ang pagiging gentleman mo. Too good to be true. You have a good body, it seems that you work out pero iniisip namin front mo lang yun. Kadalasan kasi front ng mga bakla ang pagiging maganda ng katawan nila at pagiging sporty...
Tatawa lang si Jigs.
YUMI So we thought it¹s either that or you were planning to become a priest.
JIGS What?!
YUMI Well, you were always this goody-goody person. Pumupunta ka sa chapel. Nangungumpisal, nagsisimba...
JIGS The way you said it, parang equivalent ang dalawa a.
YUMI Of course not. I didn¹t mean that!
JIGS I take my faith seriously. That doesn¹t make me gay!
YUMI So you did want to become a priest...
JIGS Hindi rin. Actually, I always wanted to raise a family...and be a father.
Tahimik.
YUMI So you¹re not gay.
JIGS No.
YUMI You never...
JIGS Ilang beses ka ba ipinanganak? Kulit mo e. It¹s my turn.
YUMI Homophobe ka no?
JIGS Hindi kaya!
YUMI Whatever...
JIGS Ako na, daya mo naman e.
YUMI Okay, okay. Shoot me.
JIGS How do you see yourself five years from now?
YUMI You expect to win this game? Ang kokorni ng mga tanong mo e.
JIGS The object of this game is not to win.
YUMI E ano pa ba?
JIGS To get to know the other person.
YUMI Sure. Basta ako, I will win this game. Walang thrill ang isang game kung walang nananalo.
JIGS Sagot.
YUMI May time limit ba ?to? (Tatawa) Wine pa nga.
JIGS Sabi nga nila: in vino veritas.
Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.
YUMI Masarap ang wine, ha? Saan kaya nabili ito? (Iinom) To answer your question, either maging entrepreneur ako, magsisimula ako ng sarili kong botique or bar, o kaya, magiging artista ako sa pelikula.
JIGS Not bad.
YUMI Pero mukhang malabo yung stint ko sa movies. Tough ang competition e. Saka mahina ang manager ko. Panay hosting at pictorials ang nakukuhang raket para sa akin. Papalitan ko na nga e. Pag nakaipon ako, baka magtayo na lang ako ng botique.
JIGS (Magbibiro) Ayaw mo mag-bold?
YUMI Yuck!
JIGS Lahat ng gustong mag-artista doon dumadaan.
YUMI May talent naman ako kahit papano a!
JIGS Lahat naman ng bold star may talent a! Sa dibdib! (Tatawa)
YUMI (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Bastos ka talaga! Akala ko goody-goody ka..Hindi ko papatulan ang pagbobold kahit ano¹ng mangyari no! Kahit ganito ako, may respeto pa rin naman ako sa sarili ko.
JIGS Ganito? Ano¹ng ganito?
Di sasagutin ni Yumi ang tanong.
YUMI These producers think all the people want is sex, sex, sex! Kaya puro basura ang mga pelikula e. Wine pa nga!
JIGS (Magsasalin ng wine) Bakit naman botique?
YUMI Hoy madaya ka na ha? Hindi pa ako lasing. Ako na¹ng magtatanong. Ang korni mo namang magtanong. Bigatan naman natin nang konti...Inom ka muna.
Iinom si Jigs. Magsasalin siya ng bago.
YUMI Who was your first crush in the barkada?
Tahimik.
YUMI Haha! Bingo ka no? Bagal mo naman sumagot.
Iinumin ang wine. Magsasalin ng bago.
JIGS Lalaki o babae?
Tatawa sila pareho.
YUMI Dapat may time limit ito e.
Tahimik.
JIGS Hirap naman ng tanong mo.
YUMI Iyon nga ang maganda e. Para may thrill. As if naman ibo-broadcast ko sa barkada kung sino.
JIGS Wine pa?
YUMI Di mo pa sinasagot yung tanong ko, nagtatanong ka na!
Magsasalin ng wine si Jigs kay Yumi.
JIGS Yung crush ko kasi...siyempre, sino pa ba? E di yung pinakamaganda sa barkada.
YUMI Nge. Subjective yon no! Para sa¹kin ang pinakagwapo si Joel. Sa babae, si Kay. Para kay Ronald, si Meg...
JIGS Yung literally na may dating'walang tanung-tanong. Yung kahit sino¹ng tanungin mo sa tropa, objectively, siya ang isasagot.
YUMI Jigs, twenty questions ang game natin. Hindi guessing game. C¹mon man. Play your own game. Pa¹no na kung truth or dare to e di pahirapan na. Dadalawa na nga lang tayo e.
JIGS Yung commercial model.
Matitigilan si Yumi.
YUMI Wine pa nga.
Magsasalin si Jigs. Mag-iisip si Yumi. Iinom. Biglang matatawa.
YUMI (Tumatawa pa rin) Talaga?
JIGS Sige, pagtawanan ba?
YUMI You can say it to my face, I won¹t bite. Bakit hirap na hirap kang sabihin kung sino? Takot kang ma-reject? Parang tanong lang e...Wine pa nga!
JIGS Okay, 1 point ka na...
YUMI (Ngiti) Gee...thanks. Flattered naman ako. At kailan naman nangyari ito?
JIGS Sorry, my turn to ask. (Ngingiti) Who is your crush in the barkada...NOW?
YUMI E ginaya mo lang yung tanong ko e.
JIGS Hinde no. May qualifier ako. Ang sabi ko, NOW. Ang tanong mo, first crush ko.
YUMI Korni pa rin. Alam mo, kung basketball ?to, tambak ka na.
JIGS Just answer the question.
YUMI Siyempre wala. I told you, I don¹t have time for these stuff. Kakabreak ko lang di ba?
JIGS Korni mo namang sumagot.
YUMI E korni yung tanong e. Pero kung talagang-talagang kailangan kong sumagot...hmmm...teka...sino nga ba? Sino ba¹ng crush material sa barkada? Wala akong maisip e. Ikaw na lang.
JIGS Yung seryoso naman.
YUMI Seryoso ako. Ayaw mo yata e. Sige, iba na lang...
JIGS E napipilitan ka lang e.
YUMI Uy! Pa¹no ba¹yan? MU na tayo? Crush mo ko, crush kita...yiheee
(Tatawa).
JIGS Dati pa ?yon no!
YUMI Ay? Di mo na ko crush? Bakit, na turn-off ka? Ano namang ginawa ko? Tsk. Tsk.
JIGS Is that your question na?
YUMI Oy, hinde! Ito naman...di ba pwedeng mag-follow-up?
Iinom ng wine si Jigs.
YUMI Fine. Here¹s a little juicy question: Describe your first kiss.
JIGS That¹s not even a question.
YUMI Arte mo. O: How was your first kiss like?
Matatawa si Jigs.
JIGS Wet.
YUMI Yuck!
Magtatawanan sila.
JIGS Alam mo, aksidente yung first kiss ko. Close kasi kami nung isa kong kaibigan. Pag naggu-goodbye ako sa kanya, parati ko siyang kini-kiss sa noo. E one time, sa gym habang nagpapahinga, nakaupo siya sa sahig. Tinatamad siyang tumayo. So bumaba ako nang konti para halikan siya sa noo kasi pauwi na ako. E siya naman, para maabot ko, medyo tumingala. E sakto, sa lips ko siya nahalikan. Pareho kaming nagulat. Pero di pa kami naghiwalay agad. Weird nga ang feeling e. Parang may glue. Ayaw na namin maghiwalay pareho...
Tawa pa rin si Yumi
YUMI Awww. Ang sweet naman. Parang sa pelikula. Si Krissy ba ?to?
JIGS Hindi. Hindi mo siya kilala.
YUMI So what happened? Nagkatuluyan kayo?
JIGS Nope.
YUMI Ha?
JIGS Ewan ko ba. Complicated kasi yung situation namin e. May boyfriend siya noon. Ako naman, takot pa sa isang relationship. Pero at least, na-discover namin na pareho pala kaming may gusto sa isa¹t isa. Pero hanggang doon na lang.
YUMI What happened after?
JIGS We talked about it. We both decided na it wont work. Tapos, bigla na lang, hindi na kami nagkikita. And then, I met you guys, iba na ang barkada ko.
YUMI Nakakatuwa naman.
JIGS Ikaw, pa¹no yung first kiss mo?
YUMI Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin ng game na ito di ba? Bakit ba lagi mong bini-break ang rules? Di mo na pwedeng tanungin ?yan!
JIGS Tine-testing ko lang kung lasing ka na. (Iinom ng wine) Okay, naka-warm-up na ako: What was the naughtiest thing you ever did?
YUMI ?Yan ang mga tanong! Ano ba¹ng ibig mong sabihin ng naughty?
JIGS Bahala kang mag-define.
YUMI Hmmm...marami e...(matatawa) baka maeskandalo ka.
JIGS Kanina ayaw mo ng korni. Ngayong medyo exciting naman...
YUMI Eto na...I had two boyfriends at the same time.
JIGS (Nagulat) Hala.
YUMI I was with Joel and Zach at the same time.
JIGS Yikes. Alam ba ni Joel?
YUMI Kaya nga kami naghiwalay nun e. Nahuli ako (matatawa).
JIGS Ano namang pumasok sa kukote mo¹t ginawa mo ?yon, aber?
YUMI Nag-eexperiment lang ako. E sa type ko sila pareho e. Ano¹ng magagawa ko? Saka para may thrill. Alam mo yon? Yung patago kang nakikipag-date sa isa para di mahuli. Everyday pa akong nakakalibre, kasi, alternate sila! (Tatawa) Akala n¹yo kayo lang mga lalaki ang pwedeng gumawa no¹n?
JIGS How can you love two guys at the same time?
YUMI Who said something about love? Walang kinalaman ang love dun. I was...having fun!
JIGS Nainlove ka na ba, ever?
YUMI Nakakailang tanong ka na? It¹s my turn.
JIGS Don¹t you want to answer the question anyway?
YUMI My turn!
JIGS Kulang ka pa sa wine. (Tatawa)
Ubos na ang unang wine bottle. Kukuha si Jigs ng isa pa sa ref.
JIGS Ang bilis nating uminom a.
YUMI Are you still a virgin?
JIGS Whoa! Where did that come from?
YUMI That¹s my fourth question.
JIGS (Magsasalin ng wine sa mga baso). Ano sa tingin mo?
Ngingiti si Jigs. Tititigan lang siya ni Yumi.
YUMI Don¹t tell me, wala pang nangyayari sa inyo ni Krissy hanggang ngayon? Ilang taon na ba kayo?
JIGS Mag-tu-two years na sana next week.
YUMI So virgin ka pa? I don¹t believe it!
JIGS Mukha ba akong tarantado?
YUMI Mukha kang nagpapaiyak ng babae e.
JIGS Insulto ba ?yon?
YUMI Compliment ?yon, tanga.
JIGS Ah, okay. Thanks.
YUMI Pero, you mean, you never felt the urge to do it?
JIGS Alin? Sex?
YUMI Wow! Nasabi rin niya!
JIGS Of course I always feel it. Natural lang ?yon sa tao no? Nasa iyo na lang ?yan kung ano¹ng gagawin mo sa urge na ?yon.
YUMI E natural naman pala e. Bakit mo pinipigilan? I mean, pag naiihi ka, iihi ka. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka. Pareho lang ?yon, di ba?
JIGS Pag naiihi ka, iihi ka dahil kailangan mong umihi. At hindi ka iihi kahit saan. Pupunta ka sa banyo. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka dahil kailangan. At hindi mo kinakain ang lahat ng pagkain na ihain sa iyo. Pag di ka gutom, di ka kakain. Pag di mo gusto yung pagkain, di mo gagalawin. Ang aso, pag may nakitang pagkain diyan, walang tanung-tanong. Lalamon ?yan.
YUMI And sex is the same?
JIGS Lahat ng bagay, nilalagay sa lugar. May context. At least, yun ang nagpaiba sa atin sa aso.
YUMI Grabe ka namang magsalita. Para mo na ring sinabing lahat ng nakikipagsex, aso ah!
JIGS Sinasabi ko lang, pag wala sa tamang konteksto, mali.
YUMI And what is that context?
JIGS Matanda na tayo. Ayokong maging preachy. Alam na natin ?yan.
Tahimik.
JIGS Kaso, kahit alam na natin, minsan di pa rin natin ginagawa.
Tahimik.
JIGS Masarap e. Sino ba¹ng ayaw nun?
Tahimik.
YUMI (Medyo nairita) So feeling mo santo ka at dapat kang i-congratulate for being a virgin!
JIGS Sinasabi ko lang ang pinaniniwalaan ko. Ineexplain ko lang kung bakit di ko ginagawa. May kanya-kanya tayong dahilan. Di ko pinipilit kahit kanino ang mga paniniwala ko...No need to get so cross about it, Yumi.
Tahimik.
JIGS It¹s not about being a virgin or not. It¹s about putting things into their proper places.
YUMI I¹m not arguing with you.
JIGS Me neither. I¹m just answering your questions.
Matagal na katahimikan.
Ngingiti si Jigs. Titignan niya si Yumi na medyo nairita sa nakaraang train of conversation nila. Magsasalin siya ng wine para kay Yumi.
JIGS Nasobrahan ka na yata sa wine e. (Tatawa) You still wanna go on with the game? Nine pa lang tayo, eleven more to go. (Ngingiti)
YUMI Shoot me.
JIGS Who was your first lay?
YUMI (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Ang bastos mo talaga! So inaassume mo na hindi na ako virgin?
JIGS E sabi mo kasi, walang thrill ang game pag walang nananalo e. So I guess I¹m winning. Saka wala naman akong inimply na ganun a! I¹m just hitting two birds with one stone. Kasi kung virgin ka, e di simple lang ang sagot: wala. Kung hindi naman, e di sino?
YUMI Ang daya mo.
JIGS Akala ko ba ayaw mo ng korning tanong.
YUMI You think I¹ll answer that after giving your sermon, Father Jigs?
JIGS Ano ka ba? Inexplain ko lang yung personal reasons ko. Kung ano man ang sa iyo, I¹ll respect them as well as I know you respect mine. I¹m no saint. I¹m just trying to get to know you better. (Ngingiti)
YUMI How do you do that?
JIGS Alin?
YUMI I should have walked out on you kanina pa pero the way you say things..parang bumabaliktad sa¹yo...makes you more...charming. Kung ibang tao ka siguro, di na kita kakausapin.
JIGS You can¹t walk out. We¹re locked here for three days except for meals.
YUMI So I¹m forced to like you para di masira ang vacation ko. (Ngingiti)
JIGS You don¹t have to answer my question if you don¹t want.
YUMI I guess I¹ll be honest with you as you were honest with me...
Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.
YUMI Di mo siya kilala. His name was Robert. He was my first boyfriend. It was Senior Prom Night. Alam mo na...typical senior prom story. Everyone wants to lose it on prom night. Everyone thinks na pag prom night, it was something special. We went out sa hall nang maaga. We made out sa kotse niya. One thing led to the other. Tapos, yun...yun na. We went back just in time for the awarding of the prom queen. Guess what, I won pa. (Mahinang tawa)
JIGS What was it like?
YUMI Now that I look back, it isn¹t as special as I thought it was. Pero it was different then. Back then, we were just led by our passions. Alam mo yon? Andun ka na. Hormones raging wild. Passions and Ideals are confused. Akala mo love, yun pala, curious ka lang pala. Akala mo yun na yon. Akala mo you are in-love at lahat ng gawin mo tama. Lahat ng gawin mo perfect. Everything was magical...well, almost.
JIGS Almost...?
YUMI Sa next question mo na ?yan. Ako na.
JIGS (Pabiro) Wine pa? Kulang ka pa yata e.
YUMI Nilalasing mo ko no? May balak ka sa¹kin no? (Tatawa)
JIGS Is that your question? Sasagutin ko na. (Tatawa)
YUMI Engot. Hindi ?yon. Here¹s something na curious lang ako. Kasi I¹ve been hearing things...saka you¹ve hinted on it na rin kanina...Are you still with Krissy?
JIGS Hindi na.
YUMI Since when?
JIGS Two, maybe three weeks ago?
YUMI Sino¹ng nakipag-break?
JIGS Pareho kami.
YUMI Why?
JIGS Maraming dahilan, actually. Naisip na lang namin na it won¹t work. Isa na do¹n, magkaiba kami ng gustong mangyari sa buhay. Magkaiba kami ng mga pinaniniwalaan.
YUMI Like what?
JIGS Marami.
YUMI At ngayon mo lang nalaman iyon after two years with her?
JIGS People change, Yumi.
Tahimik.
JIGS Right before graduation, she asked me to move in with her.
YUMI Talaga?
JIGS Sabi niya, doon na naman din daw papunta ang relasyon namin. Might as well practice na raw for the real thing. Tutal, she¹s working na naman, ako naman bagong graduate, we should try out na raw living together if it¹ll work for us.
YUMI Natakot ka sa arrangement?
JIGS Hindi naman sa natakot. If you love someone, ano pa¹ng ikakatakot mo, di ba?
YUMI E bakit umayaw ka?
JIGS It¹s just that, it¹s not my thing.
YUMI Sabi na nga ba e, bakla ka no? Sinasayang mo ang opportunities! (Matatawa)
JIGS Hindi ako oportunista. At lalong hindi ako bakla.
YUMI Fine.
JIGS Naisip ko lang na hindi pa pala ako handa sa mga ganitong bagay. Wala pa sa isip ko ang gano¹n. Na-shock siguro ako sa reality na iyon na nga ang next step sa relationship namin. I mean, two years of being together and knowing each other, we¹re practically ready to get married, if you know what I mean. Pero I realized, I¹m not ready for any of these. Narealize ko how immature I am. Na iba yung ideals ko two years ago sa ideals ko ngayon. I need to mature some more to get into this thing'I mean, getting married. Diyos ko, ilang taon lang ba ako...
YUMI Maturity has nothing to do with age.
JIGS But it has a lot to do with time.
Tahimik.
JIGS So I thought, bakit kailangan ng practice mode? Ibig sabihin, pag sumablay kami, split na kami? Live like a couple minus the commitment? Pa¹no pag nawala na yung magic? Goodbye na?
Iinom ng wine si Jigs.
JIGS Kung kasal na, kasal na. Wala nang practice. I think that¹s the real cowardice. Yung i-try muna natin kung it will work kasi takot kayo na baka hindi maging successful ang outcome. Saan na napunta ang excitement ng buhay? Kaya nga kayo in-love, para sabay kayong humarap sa totoong buhay, sa hirap at ginahawa, di ba? (Matatawa) Hindi yung pagpapraktisan muna ninyo para siguradong ginhawa lang.
Magkikibit-balikat lang si Jigs.
YUMI Are you always like that?
JIGS Like what?
YUMI So cerebral in everything. Kahit pagdating sa relationships.
JIGS Life is too precious para lang daanin sa trial and error.
Ngingiti si Jigs. Tahimik.
YUMI So, No hard feelings?
JIGS Friends pa rin kami. She still calls me up nga sa bahay e.
YUMI That¹s nice.
JIGS Kayo, bakit kayo nagbreak ni Carlo?
YUMI That¹s your sixth na ha?
JIGS Sure.
YUMI Alam mo, ironic para sa akin yung break-up namin ni Carlo. And the funny thing was, it was about...sex. Uy, sa atin lang ito ha?
JIGS Of course.
YUMI Kasi nga, I was looking for that magic nga di ba? I wanted to be in a relationship na special naman. So of all the boyfriends I had, sa kanya lang ako walang sexual relationship. As in nag-aabstain talaga ako. Kasi parang naisip ko, para magkaroon naman ng meaning yung ³making love² di ba? Parang, dapat di mo parating ginagawa, at ginagawa mo lang when you are sincere with yourself and with your partner. So I was investing muna emotionally. And I was actually starting to care about him. Yung, hindi ko na iniisip yung sarili ko. Yung siya lang ang inaalala ko. Akala ko perfect na...
JIGS Ano¹ng nangyari?
YUMI Patunayan ko raw na mahal ko siya. Magbigay daw ako ng proof. Pagbigyan ko raw siya. Sabi ko sa kanya, hindi pa ba sapat na proof ?yon? Na I¹m saving myself for that right moment, that special moment between us? Alam mo¹ng ginawa? Nilayasan ako!
JIGS You deserve someone better.
YUMI Talaga!
YUMI Isipin mo, kung kelan naman I grew tired of meaningless sex, when I¹m looking for the real thing, saka naman mawawala. Ang ironic ng buhay no?
JIGS That¹s the way we must learn.
YUMI Alam mo, kung tutuusin, never ko pang na-experience yung tunay na mag make-love. And I had to go all through those relationships para lang ma-realize yun. At least, ngayon, alam ko na ang hinahanap ko.
Iinom ng wine.
YUMI Ikaw ba, importante sa¹yo na virgin ang mapapangasawa mo? How do you see virginity ba?
JIGS Alam mo, di ko pa napag-isipan ?yan. Pero now that you¹ve mentioned it...It doesn¹t matter kung virgin ang mapangasawa ko o hindi. Of course I value virginity a lot. I treat it as the only real gift I could give to my wife to be. Imaginin mo na lang di ba, kung wife ko ang una ko. It¹s like the perfect wedding gift I could give to her. Pero kung siya hindi na virgin, I wouldn¹t care. As long as mahal ko siya. Kasi I don¹t expect her to give me the same gift. I don¹t do something because I expect people to do the same to me. Ibigay niya sa akin ang sarili niya nang buong-buo, sapat na sa akin ?yon. Masaya na ako sa ganoon.
YUMI (Mapapangiti si Yumi.) You know, that¹s the nicest thing I ever heard from a guy. That¹s why I always enjoy talking to you. You always say the nicest things.
JIGS Wow. Salamat. E ikaw, is making love to you equal to love?
YUMI I always took sex and love as opposite ideas. I mean, after the first time na...you know...sa Senior prom. Kasi afterwards, we broke up na ni Robert. Tapos naisip ko, yun na ba yung love? Baka hindi love yung naramdaman ko. Baka napagkamalan ko lang siyang love. I was just after the pleasure of intimacy. And then I felt empty. So empty. That¹s why I wanted to change. I wanted to believe in ³making love.² And I¹m still looking for it. Yung magic. Yung feeling mo, tao ka pala. I never felt that kahit isang beses. Men have penetrated my body but never my soul. And I wanted that. I wanted someone to touch my soul. To ³make love² to my soul through my body. Pero siguro, naging numb na¹ko sa dami ng relasyong pinagdaanan ko. Hindi ko alam kung mararanasan ko pa iyon. That¹s why I envy you.
Tahimik.
YUMI Sa tingin mo may pag-asa pa ako?
JIGS You still have your soul...(Ngingiti)
Tahimik.
YUMI With whom would you want to experience it?
JIGS Of course, sa asawa ko.
YUMI I mean, someone in particular. Take it as my seventh question. So give a name.
JIGS A name? Hindi ko alam. Basta kung sino ang magiging asawa ko.
Tahimik. Magkikibit-balikat si Yumi. Iinom ng wine.
JIGS Well, I always thought na it was Krissy. And then, it was just gone. Of course I loved her. And I still do. Pero the magic was just gone after we both found out na magkaiba kami ng mga prinsipyo sa buhay.
Tahimik.
JIGS My turn?
YUMI Shoot me.
JIGS Tell me something...a secret. Yung wala kahit isang nakakaalam.
Matagal na katahimikan.
JIGS You trust me naman di ba?
YUMI Well, you¹ve earned it, alright.
JIGS Saka wala akong tinatago sa¹yo. Sinagot ko lahat ng tanong mo as honestly as I could. (Ngingiti)
YUMI I uhm...
JIGS Yes...?
YUMI I need more wine.
Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.
JIGS Take your time. We have less than fifty hours to go.
Iinom ng wine si Yumi.
YUMI I¹ll tell you something no one in the world knows except one other person. And that person probably forgot all about me already.
JIGS (Pabiro) What? You had sex with a stranger?
YUMI Ano ka ba?
JIGS Biro lang. Seryoso na.
YUMI Promise ha? Hindi ito lalabas.
JIGS Promise.
YUMI If this goes out, I will hunt you kahit sa libingan mo. Huhukayin kita at papatayin kita ulit.
JIGS Mamatay man ako ngayon.
YUMI Okay...(Pause) I...I was with Joel then... (Magiging mas seryoso ang tono niya) ...and Zach. I wasn¹t really with Zach, I was just going out with him pag wala si Joel, alam mo na...making out and stuff...Well, anyway, I was kinda serious din naman with Joel that time. Joel and I were...you know...doing it. And...
JIGS And...?
YUMI Uhm...I...uhm...I got pregnant.
JIGS What?
Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.
YUMI I uhm...shit. Hindi ko naman talaga ginusto e. Uhm...Two months akong delayed...then I took that test. I found out na buntis nga ako...and Joel found out about Zach (maluha-luha na) and I didn¹t know what to say, you know? Maniniwala ba naman sa akin si Joel na naaliw lang ako kay Zach? Na I didn¹t really love him? Na wala lang iyon? And so he broke up with me and..I..uhm...I was afraid and uhm... (Magsisimula siyang magbreak-down)
JIGS It¹s okay...
YUMI I uhm...hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, Joel left me. I wanted to tell him about the baby to make him come back but I don¹t think he¹d believe me after the thing with Zach...and...my parents are gonna kill me if...shit. (iiyak)
JIGS (lalapit kay Yumi para i-console ito) Ssshhh...you don¹t have to tell me this if it upsets you...
YUMI And so I went to a clinic...(hahagulgol) I didn¹t mean to, Jigs. I wasn¹t myself then. And I felt so afraid. So alone...
JIGS Tahan na. Ssshhh...
Iiyak lang si Yumi kay Jigs. Yayakapin ni Jigs si Yumi.
JIGS Alam ba ?to ni Joel?
YUMI How can I tell him? The only other person na nakakaalam ay yung duktor sa clinic. God...(iiyak) Oh God...
JIGS It¹s alright...
Hihimasin ni Jigs ang likod ni Yumi. Patatahanin niya ito. Matagal silang nakaganito lang.
Matagal na katahimikan.
YUMI Can you get me my yosi?
Tatayo si Jigs. Pupunta sa may side table sa tabi ng kama. Kukunin ang Yosi ni Yumi. Magsisindi siya ng isa at iaabot kay Yumi.
YUMI Thanks...
Matagal na katahimikan.
YUMI If we were...if we were the last two people on earth, would you consider doing it with me?
JIGS Doing what?
YUMI Alam mo na...
JIGS Alin? (Teasing ngingiti)
YUMI Gago mo. (Ngingiti)
JIGS Ngumiti rin.
YUMI So? Would you?
JIGS Alin nga? Di mo masabi no? Bakit di mo masabi? (Pagtatawanan si Yumi) Sabihin mo nga: Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!
YUMI Shut up nga!
JIGS That¹s your eight na, ha?
YUMI I lost count. Answer it.
JIGS Why not?
Hihithit ng yosi si Yumi. Tahimik. Sasandal si Yumi sa balikat ni Jigs.
JIGS If you could be something else, what would you be?
YUMI I dunno...maybe a violin...yeah. Violin siguro.
JIGS Bakit?
YUMI I always saw the relationship of a violin and its player as very intimate. Pag tumutugtog ang violinist, ang nakikita ko at naririnig ko, he strokes the soul of the instrument and the instrument penetrates the soul of the player. Para silang nagmi-make love. Di ba? Very sexy, very intimate, very sublime. Di ba? Pareho silang sincere
sa isa¹t isa. Dahil kung hindi sila sincere, walang music na mabubuo. The violin surrenders her body to her player, her whole body and her whole soul, in full trust and sincerity. Di ba, compared to the sound of the other instruments, ang tunog ng violin parang isang naked woman? A naked woman in surrender? I want to be a violin. I want to be stroked in the soul. I want to make sincere music. I want to experience the sound of love.
Tahimik.
JIGS Lalim nun ah. (Ngingiti)
YUMI Pa¹no mo malalamang in-love ka na?
JIGS Paano? I don¹t think there¹s a formula to that. Basta malalaman mo na lang. I mean, ilang beses lang ba nangyari sa akin ?yon? I¹d like to believe na yun na nga ?yon...yung kay Krissy...
YUMI Kwento mo nga...paano mo narealize dati na mahal mo nga si Krissy?
JIGS Alam mo nakakatawa...korni actually. Babalik na naman ako sa pagiging korni nito e. Di ba ayaw mo sa korni.
YUMI Sige na. Hindi na kita aasarin.
JIGS I heard bells.
YUMI Ano?
JIGS Seryoso. Bigla na lang, habang nag-uusap kami, may narinig na lang akong bells, tapos music. Ewan ko kung iniimagine ko lang ?yon pero yun ang nangyari. Nakakatawa nga e. Parang kanta ng Beatles.
YUMI Seryoso ka ba?
JIGS O baka naman nagkataon noong oras na yon, may nagkakantahan sa kung saan sa school. Basta may narinig akong bells. Tapos napangiti ako. Pagtingin ko sa mata niya, iba na ang nakikita ko. Hindi ko na siya nakita as kabarkada lang. Biglang parang may magic. Hindi ko ma-explain. Baduy pero ganun. Tapos I just seized the moment. Umamin ako. A week later, kami na.
YUMI Korni nga. (Matatawa)
JIGS Korni talagang pakinggan. Pero pag nandun ka na. Pag naranasan mo na, feeling mo, hindi na korni.
Ngingiti si Yumi. Tahimik.
YUMI Alam mo, may times na parang tunog violin ang boses mo. O lasing lang ako?
Tahimik.
JIGS I¹m into my last question.
Iaangat ni Yumi ang ulo niya.
YUMI Shoot me. Better make it good.
JIGS If you were again to be the next victim of this tradition, if you were to be locked up in this room again...who would you want the next guy to be?
YUMI (Mag-iisip) I want someone whom I could talk to... Yung makukwentuhan ko ng mga sikreto ko. Yung may sense makipag-usap. Yung may laman. The violin player who¹d stroke my strings...not even. Yung mapapatunog niya ang strings ko without even touching them. (Tahimik) Lumuluwag na ang dila ko...kung anu-ano na ang nasasabi ko. (Ngingiti)
Tititigan lang ni Jigs si Yumi. Tahimik.
YUMI Siyempre yung masarap kausap.
Tahimik. Hindi makatingin si Yumi.
YUMI Yung kahit habambuhay wala kaming gawin kundi mag-usap... I think it¹s better than making love.
Mapapatingin si Yumi kay Jigs.
YUMI Gosh I want to kiss you so badly.
Matitigilan siya.
YUMI I can¹t believe I just said that.
Tahimik. Titignan niya ulit si Jigs.
YUMI Don¹t you want to kiss me?
Pause. Titignan siya ni Jigs sa mata.
JIGS Is that your last question? (Ngingiti si Jigs)
YUMI Yes.
DILIM.

after reading this email, ewan ko ba, bigla kong namiss si ruel.. haaaay.. di pa naman matutuloy ng uwi ang kuya ko :( i just hope im not looking at a closed door and ignoring the opened windows...

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its been awhile since last nag-update ako ng blog ko... lumipas ang isang linggo, ang unang linggo ko sa bagong work ko ngayon.. well, ano nga ba ang masasabi ko sa bagong kompanya ko ngayon? isa lang.. EXCITING!! buti na lang at sa news side (or editorial ang tawag nila) ako nalagay at hindi sa business side.. challenging kc i get to see the paper to be published the day before, bongga di ba? :D syempre, kasabay nito ay responsibility.. syempre, confidential ang lahat ng nangyayari sa newsroom, lalo na ang mga lalabas the following day..

una pala akong web programmer d2.. oks, kahit minsan e kakatakot ang expectations.. me project na nga ako on my third day.. syempre, exciting din ang project ko :D haaay.. sana e this is for keeps.. bahala na ang Ama..

me isa pa nga palang benefit ang pagiging editorial s.a. ko.. kaso, di ko pa alam pano ipost d2 yung pic e.. kaya abangan na lang muna :D

me sore eyes ako :((

had received a SMS from my sister.. patay na raw ang friend ko sa paco na si oneal :( matagal na kaming walang communication nun.. kasabayan ko syang pamunuan sa binhi dati.. di ko tanda kung sino ang mas matanda sa amin, pero months lang ang pagitan namin.. he died due to diabetes.. di ko akalain na me sakit sya e ang kulit-kulit at astigin pa nya noon.. howell... sana e dala nya ang tungkulin nya sa kanyang libingan..

had my orientation today.. ok naman ang takbo.. nakasabay ko sina sharon na sa accounting magrereport, si beth na business editorial, at si pam or jam sowi, di ko masyado narinig ang name.. di naman naintroduce masyado e, hehehe.. di bale, i'll read ur column, pramis :D she's the one responsible for the youth section of PDI.. she's 5yrs na sa PDI pero ngayon lang naka-attend sa orientation, heheeh :D

eniweys, my sched will be 9am to 6pm for now.. di ko nga alam kung ok yun or ano.. kc sanay naman ako sa morning na work, pero yung mga naiisip kong raket e di ko muna pwede ituloy.. siguro.. bahala na.. (mukhang) ok naman ang compensation package so i hope this will be for good.. kakapagod magpalipat-lipat ng trabaho, tulad ng pagpapalipat-lipat ng bahay..

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minsan nakakasama rin ang madalas na pag-oonline.. o ang matagal na pag-oonline.. nagkaroon tuloy kami ng maliit na sagutan ng dati kong kalokal.. howell..

sa dinami-dami at hinaba-haba ng pag-uusap, text, sched, resched, injan, sorihan at kung anech-anech pa, nagkita rin ang dalawang vaklah...

kala ko e hanggang drawing na lang ang pagkikita namin, sa wakas e natuloy din! kakaaliw nga e, walang pagkailang na naramdaman, super click agad bawat chicahan! :D

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finally, will start na sa monday sa Philippine Daily Inquirer.. abangan ang susunod na kabanata...

went to Medicard yesterday to complete my PDI pre-employment medical exam. nakita ko tuloy yung findings sa x-ray ko.. mild thoracic dextroscoliosis daw.. ano meaning nun? help naman jan lolah..

well, last day ko na sa work last friday.. di ko pa sure kung when ang official start ko sa PDI.. eniweys, oks lang, maasikaso ko muna yung ibang bagay, like saya ni mom and yung naiisip na business.. chosen EB din last friday, wala si sunget, oks lang.. mas masaya nga kc andun naman ang F3, hehehe :D nagbilliards afterwards.. buti nga at di nagbowling, baka lalong na-injure ang tuhod ko.. sayang nga at di natuloy ang pagpapatherapy ko kahapon.. haaay.. kelan kaya?